unbreakable

2011-12-25T02:52:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas People!!!!
Just dropped by my blog to wish u guys~
been busy since filming til wrkin til nw! OMGosh!

It's the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

I don't wanna miss out on the holiday
But I can't stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you, under the mistletoe

Everyone's gathering around the fire
Chestnuts roasting like a hot July
I should be chillin with my folks I know
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

Word on the street santa's coming at night
Reindeer's flying in the sky so high
I should be making a list i know
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you, under the mistletoe

Hey love, the wiseman followed a star
The way I follow my heart
And it lead me to a miracal
Hey love, din't you buy me nothin
Cause i'm feeling one thing,
Your lips on my lips, that's a merry merry christmas~

I'm searching for my Miss International Love :)

2011-11-11T04:28:00.004+08:00

i dunnoe y, tis thin suddenly hit me in my mind n memory..
al this while i've fooled by a mistake..in anyw its a mistake i chose..

你越走越近我只得楞在那里
我不应该在车里, 看到你们有多甜蜜
但是这样一来我比较容易死心, 同时也给了我离开的勇气
他一定很爱你, 也把我比下去..分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你, 比我会讨好你..不会像我这样孩子气; 为难着你..
我知道, 你一定会幸福的..
原谅我没有早一点发现其实她不是我的最爱..
原谅我没有说我给你的并不多，拥抱过却没有把握
过去我已经失去了, 我不停的伤害就是希望你会恨我.
结果真的让我如愿以偿了后再来告诉我残酷的事实！
&*%#$^%(^@%$@&*%$@&*)$%@(*!

关于你的歌 is a song tat belongs to us..
watever u say to him brings bck memories of us~
u ar still tat old u, perhaps stronger n braver?
still rmb i asked for 'sex' the other time?
it was mend to be a test, i jus wanna noe hw much u reali love me
its pure stupid n funny thinkin bck..
in the end i ended our r/s becuz u were nt wat i wanted bck then
i stil rmb u came & told me somethin bout it after brk..
u told me tat if we were to reali patch bck, u dun mind losin ur FIRST time?
i too rmb myself smiling at u tellin u we wnt be bck again, kp it.
hmmm..perhaps i m too gd in lyin til u took it for real?
sex is the las thin i wan in a r/s, u knew..
从前你是那么的了解我，对我的大大小小事都了如指掌..
最让我万万没想到的是对我的为人如此了解的人既然突然间不了解我
误会我想要的是另外的东西..你如果想知道我当初离开的原因，联系我吧..
毕竟这是我藏在心底的秘密，除了我自己没有人懂。
答案为了你而留的，哪天如果你有机会看见我的这篇废话或许我们还算有那么一点点缘分吧~

Ps: tis is NOT for CQH..
its IS for CHX..

2011-08-30T02:10:00.001+08:00

it has been 5yrs & 9mths since i fell inlove wif u,
4yrs & 9mths since u left me... [mths ar nt exact, bt yrs ARE]
i often wonder hw ar u, hw hav u been..
is ther chance even jus a 0.000000000000000000000000000001%?
i m sry for the hurt, bt it got me bck 2x too, do u noe tat?
i got no choice bt to let go, hav u ever thought hw terrible i felt?
hw much tears i dropped for u? hav u ever spared a thought for me instead of her!
i did so much & al i got was this, everythin tats left of us..
no friendships, relationships etc etc.. bt wat did she got for brkin us up?!
friendship, relationship [ah ma & sun nv]?! is this hw u define the word "FAIR"?!!

each time i go overseas, i will get u somethin ther..
i've always wanted to giv them to u personally, bt do u even care?
u got freakin no idea hw happy i was tat day when u called me suddenly jus to chat!
i was so happy tat i smiled to myself & ppl took me as a fool..
i enjoyed bein mistaken as a fool at tat point of time, becuz its FOR YOU.
we chatted for over an hr plus? al bout our times tgt..
it might hav hurt if i was tellin somebody else bout it, bt it doesn't when its u.
i admitted tat i still love u alot, bt wat ans did i get?
i rather u reject me or told me ur REAL ANS then to mak me wait.
sometimes its nt the waitin tat hurts, its the chance of gettin tgt & missed....
i swear i did al i could to kp u bck, bt it al went to drain on 14/08/10.
i thought it was a chance tat day after tat phone cal, yet once again, gone.
everywher i go, i wished u were ther..bt u ain't, reality or dream.
the veri first time we met, i wanted to mak thins better for u..
i wanted to brin u al over the world n leave our memory in every country on earth.
i wanted to buy u everythin u say u LIKE, giv u everythin u say u WANT.
i wanted to spend ur 18th wif u since i missed ur 16th,
i wanna brin u out to every restaurant in SG,
i wanna brin u to al the theme parks n play cuz i noe u love to play RC,
i wanna buy u the mos delicious kimchi n many more..
at the end of the day i came to realized it was al my wishful thinkin..

i thought it would be gd if i learn to be gracious,
i wished u al the bes wif him, once a gd friend of mine..
bt little did i noe tat u ar so stubborn,
u got out of my life, nt u NEVER ONCE stepped out of my heart..
i got no choice bt to hide u deep inside, bury u in the deepest corner~
becuz of u i m willing to giv up everythin on earth, wat bout u?
u gav up nth bt me, well done uhh Chen Qiu Hua..
for all those tat u've said to me, i salute u!
u walked in & out of my life, left scars al over~
STILL, i m gonna pluck up my biggest courage to tell u tat i wnt forget u,
my heart wnt stop lovin, my memory cant auto delete everythin bout u,
it al happen & is in tat state al becuz i love too much..
too much til i can onli see u huggin n kissin the other guy,
tellin him tat u not be the best, bt u're worth his smile, his sweetness and his everything. u love him etc etc.. u meant nobody ever told u tat,
tat u ar worth mor den al those of his?! tat u're worth my life..

everythin had change..it changed becuz of 1 sentence u mentioned.
i wil always rmb tat sentence u said til my las breathe.
cuz it always reminds me hw unworthy my tears are for the pas few yrs, perhaps u? :)
stay blessed wif ur first bf, i m livin my everyday life the bes way it could be.
perhaps it hurts once in awhile, bt i learnt to pretend becuz of u..
i wnt drop a tear for u anymor becuz i m stronger nw, nth about u can brin me down!
i dun wanna disappoint those tat stood by me after u left me alone cryin sorrowfully.
i've been wantin to tel u, tat cal i made to u to end ALL our r/s didn't onli made u cry, it stabbed rite into my heart n broke it the moment i end my sentence.
do u noe i felt 10x more den u & i pretended to nt feel a thin,
despite the fact of seein u the nex day in sch wil brk me down?
Happy 5yr 8mths to the invisible love of ours~

ok, too much alrdy ALZA..spare a thought for ur dear YLYS~~
<3 u nw til................................tel u nex time :P
muacks la, dun say i bias ah..its nt al bout qiuhua ok, jus tis one..
^^ the res al urs! stay tune ah YL!

2011-06-05T01:15:00.004+08:00

说好要一起旅行是我如今唯一坚持的任性..
一起长大的约定那样真心, 与你聊不完的曾经~
我已经分不清你是友情还是错过的爱情了.

情绪莫名的拉扯, 我还是爱你的
我断断续续地唱着歌, 假装没事..
时间过了, 走了
而我们的爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了, 真的哭了离开时的不快乐只有我了解
有些爱给到这真的痛了
我们说好的幸福呢？
开心与不开心的日子我再不舍还是要放手
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻, 我一定会记得..

2011-06-04T23:55:00.001+08:00

我问你我是不是你最疼爱的人，你还记得你的回答吗？
你说是.. 那为何你不知道你最疼爱的人, 最疼爱的人就是你呢？
难道我真的那么木头吗？木头到你感受不了！？
Haiz.......................... :'(

2011-05-28T02:10:00.009+08:00

actually you don't have to forget & start afresh with me.
i deserved the situation today, i was the one who made that decision afterall.
blame no one for it but self, years had gone by in a blink of eyes.
you must be thinking, whats the point of me saying all those after so long, rite?
whats done can never be undone, there isn't any 'Delete' button in life....
i always use leaving as a form of protection, unknowingly causing deeper hurts.
its not that you're not good enough, just that i don't deserve what i'm having.
many regret being with me, i knew it was my problem..
sometimes i do wonder to myself,
why on earth did i gave up a good life for a harder one?
i could easily have someone whom love me more than her own life,
willing to do anything for me, NEVER ONCE showed me any temper or tantrums,
someone i'm grateful and sorry to, someone i took for granted,
someone i wished i could apologise to in her face..but i didn't.
afraid of being rejected so i chose to accept her reason,
rather us being strangers so that she won't hate me than to be friends & hurt.
this is how much of a jerk i was, have you seen me through?
you shouldn't be feeling sorry for me, you can lead a better life ahead.
leave that try for someone you love more/deeper, perhaps its the best for you.
you wouldn't be suffering till now if it hasn't been for me, i'm sorry :(
i wanna try, but fate doesn't allow me to~~~ argh!

gosh! my wrist are filled with RASHES!!! :@
god! y mus u mak me allergic to stainless steels & nt FOODS!!
if i could, i rather u exchange my allergies frm skin to foods!
i'm scratching on it & it doesn't helps abit! >.< tsk!
its painful after my baths~ wth!
lost of appetite nowadays, havin gastrics at the wrong time,
lack of slp etc etc...man, i'll die earli if tis continues!
goin to slp liao, gastric again! =X argh!!!
[i cant believe i actually posted HALF a post without SINGLISH!]

a song for everybody: Straitjacket Feeling by The All American Rejects
been listening to it the whole day! favourite la! (Y) BEST!

2011-05-26T23:49:00.010+08:00

anywher u go, i'm near~
anywher u go, i'll be ther~
anytime u whisper my name, u'll see hw i kp every single promises.
cuz wat kind of guy would i be if i were to leave when u ned me mos~!
wat are words when u dun reali mean them when u say them?!
wat ar words if they're onli for gd times then they dun?!
when its love yeah u say them out loud those words,
they nv go away, they live on, even when we're gone..

its so hard to lose the one you love, to finally have to say goodbye :(
i tried to be strong bt the pain keeps holdin on & all that i can do is watch over her
deep within my heart i know its time to move on when the fairytale that i once knew is gone..
when the last tear drop falls i'll still be holdin on to all of our memories
& all of what we used to be..
i'll stand tall & know that you're here with me in my heart when my last tear drop falls...
so now i'm all alone, life keeps movin on bt my destination still unknown >.<
will ther be a time when i'll fall inlove again when i was meant to walk these streets alone?
if there was just one wish i could be granted here tonight, it would be to have you right back by my side!

lately hav been wondering hu will be there to take over my place when i'm gone~
you'll need love to light the shadows on your face..
could you make it on your own?
if i could then i would, i'll go wherever you will go
way up high or down low, i'll go wherever you will go..
maybe i'll find out a way to make it back someday,
to watch you & to guide you through the darkest of your days~
then i hope there's someone out there hu can bring me back to you :)
you ran away with my heart, my hope & my love.
i know now just how my life and love might still go on.....
in your heart & mind, ther i'll stay with you for all of time~

cuz when we're fifteen & somebody tells us they love us,
we're definitely gonna believe them!
tats when we're 15~ :D

2011-05-19T23:55:00.023+08:00

一定是我从你心里拿走了什么, 不然怎么你忽然很沉默
有人说永远太苦了谁敢说不是？
爱情哪太惊心动魄，我才把你手紧握
时空换了, 光阴飞走世界都变了..
请你相信我爱你是真的, 人海中的我只要世界还有你回忆就不会贫穷
我不停问下一分钟能给你什么, 那时让你哭过的话是我在胡说
除了祝福我不想再多说一句, 他有多好这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉那狂烈的拥抱这回忆他怎么给得到？
不管他多好都跟我有不同的好, 最后你的选择是谁不重要因为我知道爱情不能作比较
我也不要你拿我和他作比较 :)
每次你任性时说的一些话你可知道有多伤人吗？
我顶多只气个三分钟, 过后依然体贴的送你回家不是吗？
有时回想过去如果不是我一直忍让, 你也许会懂得/学着体谅
但是我完全无法硬着心肠做到让你有伤心,难过或失望！>.<

你和我现在只是朋友,无论你多好我们却只能做朋友！
你撞见我, 我却装作不认识..我们如何要求更多还是只能做朋友.
或许这是最好的结果吧, 朋友变情人再变朋友只能显真格..
第一首歌的难忘,
第一个天真愿望,
第一个诺言; 美丽的荒唐..
你教我爱的善良,
你教我恨的野蛮,
你教我忘记该忘伤心太伤~
那些你教我的事让思念更苦更长, 只想问想念的你怎么样. . . .
爱情是信仰或只能是旅途风光？那女孩带我漫游一次天堂 :]
你教我怎么爱上却没教怎么遗忘, 让我的阳光都变成了泪光.

2011-05-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

i'm down wif fever, no one noes or realized..
i went class happily, ate & play as per normal so tat i can avoid bein spotted.
do u noe i'm missin u, no u dun..
to u, u jus feel tat i find u onli when i ned help,
i find u onli when i think of u, has no one beside me..
today i realized i'm tat kind of person to u.
i'm missin u, wher will u be? ar u happy or sad?
y did u tk me through the mos memorable travel & left mos painful souvenir for me?
we were so sweet, so beautiful, so I believe, So enthusiastic bout our future..
u endured quietly, the sweeter those memories, the greater the hurt.
i nv once understand wats hidden in ur eyes or smile..
i shut myself up, leavin only a handphone..
lkin at our past, scenes after scenes, showing ur love & my love.

就连你一个微笑也都会让我醉, 你所谓的幸福我很想给..但是.....
笑容没了, 距离有了而快乐也走了.
真心死了, 彼此不信任了..我终於懂了, 真的~
我很想说有你在身边是幸福的, 我的心是你的, 你真的误解了; 更想说你真的忘记了我说过的话..
看着往事一幕一幕, 再次演出你我的爱..不能给你未来那我就还你现在.
安静结束也是另一种对待.
当眼泪留下来时伤已悄在, 分开也是另一种明白.
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开, 感情的污点就留给时间慢慢的去漂白吧~
我的心是一个车牌写着等待..

2011-05-15T00:18:00.009+08:00

如果有一天你告诉我你要走, 我不会强求也不会挽留..
只因为我要给你最后的温柔, 我会对你说: "我给你自由, 我给你全部全部全部的自由"！
你最近不说话, 怎么了？为什么？是不是有什么事让你不快乐？
听说你最近很孤单, 可是我却不能够在你的身旁陪伴你~
你想要的我却不能给, 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的..
如果你能听到我心碎的声音..大家都吃着聊着笑着今晚有多开心, 最角落里的我笑得多合群~
我发现最近我们在电话里常常很沉默, 想看的电影也不再相同了..
你的眼神虽然很温柔但却像另一个人在面前那样陌生 :(
你能不能对我再冷漠一点, 至少让我以为你不再爱我了.
为什么你还不敢承认我们都是脆弱的人呢！？
别再牵着一双没感觉的手了, 我真的不会怪你因为我太爱你所以才说不出口.
受伤只是我自己不小心而已, 与你没关系 :)
如果你一层一层一层的剥开我的心, 你会鼻酸, 你会流泪; 只希望你能听到我,看到我的全心全意..

亲爱的今天你好吗, 为什么都不说话？
陪你的时间太少吗, 我一直在等着你回答..
找到自己的真爱需要多少缘份, 多认真才有可能爱得没有疑问？
爱你爱那么深, 原谅我不承认..你是最了解我的那个人.
我爱你的天真, 爱你的诚恳, 爱你的眼神, 我要我是你能相信和值得爱的人, 可能吗？
人家说爱要爱到8分留给自己2分, 这样才能爱得完整..可是我爱你爱到 10 分, 留给自己 0 分 >.

谢谢你一路陪着我. . . . . .

2011-05-08T23:55:00.004+08:00

我常在想应该再也找不到任何人像你对我那么好了 :)
好到我的家人也被照料, 就连我的朋友都为你撑腰 >.你还是有一堆毛病改不掉, 拗起来气得仙女都跳脚！
可是人生完美的事太少, 我们不能什么都想要~
你是我最重要的决定, 我愿意每天在你身边苏醒 <3
就连吵架也很过瘾不会冷冰因为真爱没有输赢, 只有亲密 ^^
我愿意打破对未知的恐惧, 就算流泪也能放晴将心比心..
因为幸福没有捷径只有经营 :D

at this moment i'm feeling extreme terrible,
throat pain to the max, it caused my inner ear pains too~
GOD! heal me of my pains, release me frm the devil's doings! :(

我好想她, 现在好吗？
旧画面还在记忆里挣扎; 那年结束时说的话我一直不能放下
她说爱啊, 爱很伟大所以才能让她那么勇敢的离开~
当时的我不明白为什么, 直到时间白了头发..
我懂了她, 她不让眼泪落下所以让爱结束在最美刹那,
她说算了吧, 够了吧不要再看到彼此苦苦的挣扎了！
她不要我为她牵挂所以说天空很大要, 自由飞翔
没有结果的爱情她说放了吧, 走了吧不想要彼此受伤....她那么傻！！！
真的好傻好傻..

PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN TTM AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =X

2011-05-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

i remember the times we spent together all those drives,
we had a million questions all about our lives :)
& when we got to New York everything felt right,
i wish you were here with me, tonight! >.<

i remember those days we spent together were not enough,
it used to feel like dreaming except we always woke up,
never thought not having you here now would hurt so much..

i remember that time you told me bout when you were eight & all those thins u said that night, that just couldn't wait..
i remember the car you were last seen in & the games we would play,
all the times we spilled our coffees & stayed out way too late..

i remember the time you sat and told me bout your Jesus
& how not to look back even if no one believes us
when it hurts so bad sometimes not having you here, i'll say
tonight i've fallen & i can't get up, i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
& every night i missed you, i can just look up & know the stars are holding you...
tonight~

好多好多的话想对你说, 悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和, 舍不得又无可奈何!
你会不会相信我对流言会附和, 还是你知道我还是我?
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多才恍然发现原来真正懂我的人就你一个~
若想到你想起我, 胸口依然是温柔的 :)
我的快乐都被认可, 委屈却没有人能诉说..
黑夜把心洋葱般剥落, 拿掉防卫就没有剩了
但是为什么我在脆弱的时候反而想你更多呢？
如果你也听说, 可否会想起我？
想普通旧朋友还是你依然会心疼我？
我想我宁可都沉默以免显得做作 :(
如果你想起我, 你会想到什么？

2011-05-06T23:50:00.006+08:00

在你离开的那一天我喝了第一瓶烈酒
模糊之间我依然看得见你留给我最后的温柔
我们曾经有过欢乐的画面, 还有贴在房间里的照片~
我想这次分开让我获益不淺, 我終于了解！
我愛你不是只在刹那之间, 你的好我现在才发现才知道是不可以欠缺..
我愛你在一句算了吧就完結 :(
承诺已不再是永远, 我的心像是破碎的镜片或许是我的不直觉让我对你忽略, 可是我是真的很想和你走到终点~！
回不到从前也沒有了知觉~

如果能把你的眼神默默背好那我就可以无视寂寞的炫耀..我想我不会像现在这么糟~
如果能把走过的路都记牢那么我就可以面对断线的依靠, 至少孤单不用如此的骄傲~
无知热雨的微笑增加跟脑海的时调..
我抓不紧也放不掉, 未来的某个街角是否转身就找得到..？
爱是一种需要, 却不一定要得到..只要你觉得快乐就好~
梦会温热眼角也可以让回忆像水草般缠绕, 却总能让人勇敢不笑..
爱是一种需要, 聚散却没办法预料只能在心里做个记号~
直到那天遇到还会是同样的味道吗？
下雨也好, 起风也好只要心想着就能不会难熬

if u're in darkness in the night i’ll find tat light for u,
as long as i gt eyes i’ll hav a sight for u,
as long as i'm alive baby i’d die for u cuz i jus wanna be wif u!
i wish i could kp u much longer~

2011-05-05T23:55:00.001+08:00

我不要跟着你的脚步因为那不是我的路
我没有了你是那么清楚那么的爱孤独~
快不快乐总有个限度, 不管贪不贪图..而你让我自己陷入混淆的地步
是你让我在你面前像镜子一样的清楚 >.<
一点也没有后退的路, 而我的苦刚刚才开始吞吞吐吐
你怎么会是我的幸福, 我竟如此的盲目！
我那么认真的守住我们的过去, 坚持爱你的心你到底在不在乎！？
我的幸福怎么会是你, 我竟苦苦的追逐~
所有和你有关的错误我从现在开始背负, 事到如今我知道你还是不在乎..

已经对坐了一夜恐怕天就快要亮了, 我开始发现我们/对你的爱也要散得一干二净了~
你像过去那样浮现在我脑海里将我困扰, 你的温柔其实就如一把锐利刀片, 要我还你怎样的笑？
我明明就知道这将是最后的拥抱~
你给我一个圈套, 我不能跳也不能逃跑！
我能拿什么和你计较？！我想留的你想忘掉.. :(
曾经幸福的, 痛苦的, 该你的, 该我的到此一笔勾销
我还能拿什么和你计较？！不痛的人不会受煎熬~
原来牵着手走的路只有我一个相信天荒地老....

2011-05-04T23:36:00.001+08:00

你留下的我舍不得还因为那是我们之间仅剩下的相关~
但若要把回忆撑开看需要多少勇敢阿？
感情在风雪里流逝得太快, 快得就连再见都来不及说
及时我们当时抓紧了彼此的手, 我们最终还是走散..
你不必再爱我, 你尽管放开反正时间总会把爱冲淡
至少我学会了爱情最美就美在遗憾~
你不必再爱我, 谁也别为难.
让我怀念一会我会自己离开然后转身对你挥手, 绝对不会让你看到眼泪流下来！
你不必再爱我, 我学着释怀~
原来相爱总是比想念短暂, 至少我记住了你的笑有多么的灿烂 :)
你不必再爱我也别再心软, 你留下的什麽我都不还！
那一句我爱你我们都说得太晚~~

那一夜你喝醉时我陪着你,你默默地哭了一整夜~
你是否知道我对你一样很想念？
直到有一天我和你碰面, 在那间我们很少去的百货公司..
才知道有些感受我和你谁都不曾说出口, 我们之间隐藏了什么除了我自己没人懂~
可是你, 你怎么说; 你知道好事不是从此避开我..而我一样难过.
我们都是网上最好的朋友, 谁又会有勇气去开口？！
不在乎也不再难过因为我们还有好多好大的借口 :)
故事的最后时我发现其实我们都不曾失去过什么, 我们依然是朋友~

2011-04-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

since u went away, it's been 1yr 2mths~
bt it jus dun seem lyk ytd, we were stil together
time has passed & things hav changed so y do i feel tis way?
cuz u're wif somebody else & i'm wif somebody else
bt whenever i think bout the love we had it jus hurts so bad~
whenever i think bout the love we made, i said tat I'd be strong
girl i reali thought tat i'd move on bt stil i find myself asking:

do u still think of me lyk i think bout u?
do u still dream of me cuz i can't sleep w/o u~
tell me if time should make a change, if nt den y do i feel the same?
ur love has got me addicted..
i noe i gotta move on bt i'm so addicted to u!! >.

i've been tryin to figure out all the things i'm doin wrong
bt it seems to me girl lately all the love is gone~
nw i dun wanna a trip & start a fight bt its obvious tat thins ain't rite.
we ned to find a way to gt thins bck to the way they used to be.
bt u say tat its over, girl i'm tryin nt to hear it~
u said tat its over & its time to let it go!
u say u wanna stop tokin to me, ther's no love for u & me.
was it somethin i said, somethin i did, tell me y u wanna leave~
think bout al tat we've been through, wasn't i always gd to u?
did somethin go wrong? i ned to noe, tel me y u wanna leave!
nw i'm sittin here tryin to figure out was it u or me.
was it somethin i said, somethin i did tat mak u wanna leave?
wnt u tel me wats wrong & i'll mak it rite.
if u say u'll stay jus another nite...
we can try to gt thins bck, to the way they used to be~

2011-04-29T02:19:00.005+08:00

Jus had a chat wif a junior of mine & she made me came to realized something.. Be of gd friends to ppl as u nv noe wats gonna happen nex? Or u might jus nv gonna hav the chance to see them again yeah? Well people ard us come & go, cherish those hu stayed through it all. Well a short post ya, but i felt kinda fresh after noein tis junior of mine is in Netherland nw :D hope she excels ther & may her all the best wif her studies!

Never part without loving words to think of during your absence. It may be that you will not meet again in this life - Jean Paul Richter

Oh oh oh oh oh, i haven forgotten to post a post!

Happy Birthday To You! :D Yes you, the special one for tha day! :D
enjoy ur big day ya? ^^

2011-04-25T00:37:00.006+08:00

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话,
地址写的是心底, 你能不能收到它?
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大, 有没有什么好方法让寂寞变听话?
你最近还好吗? 是不是也在思念里挣扎? 你说会记得我还记得吗?
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗? 如果真不得已忘了我, 快向快乐出发!
有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达..旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬~
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大, 这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下?
谢谢你如此温柔捧着爱情静静等候..
我的双手其实同样在颤抖, 但我能给你什么? 我只是一个你选择遗忘的我~
我会把你种在我心中, 也许某天会终于再次长出一个梦..
不知道, 不明了, 不想要为什么我的心明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明~
还没决定往哪走所以才不能答应让你陪我, 怕你会变成我 >.<

我不会怪你对我的伪装, 太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味..
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良, 怎能让你为了我被碰伤...
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖, 你总能平复我不安的夜晚 :)
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光我才看见它原来在前方~
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁/取代你在我心上因为你是我的专属天使, 唯我能独占！
要不是你出现, 我想我还在我自己的世界发呆..等待属于我的爱情/女孩..

爱是对的, 错的是我们还没学会爱就急着爱人; 而爱错人
爱就对了, 遇到下一个爱上就爱了,痛苦或快乐都是我的 >.<
我当然经历过你现在的感受, 我想那是人必经的折磨吧?
错的是我, 自以为懂爱才会有爱人又伤害我爱的人 :(
爱这门功课艰深但快乐~
看着你看着斑驳的甜蜜, 爱你困住你也困住我自己!
我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口隐隐作痛..
说你爱我变成一种问候, 不如趁早放手把爱坠落让满地鲜红.
说你爱我同时也变成了一种折磨, 不用陪我走到最后因为我怕我承担不起你所谓的承诺...对不起

2011-04-23T02:06:00.002+08:00

曾经真的以为人生就这样了, 平静的心拒绝再有浪潮
斩了千次的情丝却断不了, 百转千折它将我围绕
有人问我你究竟是那里好为什么这麽多年我还忘不了
春风再美也比不上你的笑, 没见过你的人不会明了
是鬼迷了心窍也好, 是前世的因缘也好
然而这一切已不再重要, 如果你能够重回我怀抱
是命运的安排也好还是你存心的捉弄也好, 我愿意随你到天涯海角
虽然岁月总是匆匆的催人老, 虽然情爱总是让人烦恼
虽然未来如何不能知道, 现在说再见会不会太早

tired & long journey ahead of me,
i got no time for tis blog as days passes by..
many thins happened, i've came across many 'strangers',
watever u wanna name us, as long as u noe i nv ONCE treated u as stranger will do..
oh well, life still goes one~
its jus tat i had to tk some PAIN KILLERS to kill the pain incurred to me.
will update mor when i hav the time..

2011-03-15T23:45:00.001+08:00

[阿嫲的话 by 萧煌奇]

在细汉的时阵阮阿嬷对我尚好
甲尚好的物伴拢会留乎我
伊嘛定定带我去幼稚园看人在七桃
看人在办公伙儿看人在觅相找
伊定定跟阮说叫阮着要好好仔读册
呒通大汉像恁老爸仔这么狼狈
在彼个时阵阮拢听拢呒
阿嬷你到底是在讲什么
大汉了后才知影阿嬷的话
我会甲永远永远放块心肝底
想可一步一步的过去
定定拢会乎人真难忘
时间一分一秒块过去
在阮的心内定定拢会想到伊
阿嬷你今嘛在叨位
阮在叫你你甘有听到
阮的认真甲阮的成功你甘有看到
阮在叫你你知影没
阿嬷你今嘛过的好么
甘有人块甲你照顾
希望后世人阮搁会冻来乎你疼
作你永远的孙仔
搁叫你一声“阿嬷”

words to 阿嬷 [ah ma]:
i really miss u alot, do u noe tat?
wher're u nw, did u hear me callin u?
do u noe i'm callin u everyday?
wondering hw's ur life nw, is someone takin care of u nw?
if there is nex life, i'll stil wanna let u dote on me,
be ur forever grand child & cal u ah ma once again :(
its already 7years & i'm still missing u..
thinkin bck on those days me & didi bully u,
i watch didi scold u & u scoldin him bck,
times when i stole ur $$ to buy some toys etc etc. .
i'm sorry for those times, we wanted to say we didn't mean to to those.
I wanted to brin u along wif me everywher i go, so i put u inside my wallet.
everytime i go overseas i would tell myself hw great it would be if u're wif us.
i can do my part & be filial to u, help u out on the chores.
acc u listen to ols songs & watch tv..
bring u out on ur b'day & treat u the best thing on earth~
IF only u're here wif me nw, i swaer i would definitely cherish u mor den before,
love u mor den my life, hold ur hands & walk u to 883 for breakfast.
and many many more.. ah ma, i wanna do so many thing wif u, but wher're u? :'(

阿嫲，我真的很想你..对你是无尽的思念~
我的心也很痛，我很恨自己没机会好好孝顺你！
你为什么没有等我回来？是你故意的吗？
你是不是不想看到我伤心痛哭的那一幕，所以趁我去接阿公的时候离开人世？
我至今还是不明白你为什么这样做，我是你最疼的孙子 eh!
我爱你，非常爱你~ 根本无法控制我的眼泪..
每年的清明节是我最讨厌的一天，因为我要面对你，不能哭....
你知道我的心有多痛吗？看着一个我最爱以及最疼我的人的照片在坟墓上.
有千言万语还来不及跟你说你就这样走了..
你没有看到我小六毕业，没能参加我中四毕业典礼，你知道我有多难过吗？
虽然每天笑着，似乎过得很开心，但是我要让你知道我没有忘记你！

2011-02-23T00:44:00.006+08:00

i dun understand y u choose to find faults wif me nw u noe,
i'm tryin to accept the fact tat i've lost an impt friend,
& there u're questioning me regarding the past, jus wats wif u!?
cant i jus hav someone tats understanding enough to hold me up nw?
instead i'm bein questioned lyk a prisoner throughout the 30-40mins chat.
i dun wanna continue posting, i'm having an little migraine~
nights peeps :(

2011-02-22T23:30:00.010+08:00

hey people.. well today wasn't in any mood to tok actuali~
i've lost a friend, a kind & understanding girl jus left us on 20.02.2011..
infact, i cant accept the fact tat she left so young & sudden,
i couldn't bring myself to believe it..i nearly broke down & cry :(
i held bck my tears when i heard Sherlynn (Sharon's sister) crying~
i felt the pain of seeing someone u love being pushed into the cremator...
words could not describe my feelings, i jus hated myself so much for being late!
no one noes hw much i hated myself!

i reached Bishan ITE at 6.45pm sharp for lesson,
well the teacher & lesson today is quite interesting.
he tells almos everyone tat came in the rm tat tis is for O lvl chinese!
[cuz some of them might enter the wrong rm~]
actuali i've nth to tok bout lesson today..
al tats in my mind was Sharon Sharon Sharon & Sharon!! :(
i thought bck on hw we first met, on bus N13~
i dunnoe y, i felt painful for a moment, accepting the fact.

*if u think i'm tis kind of ppl, den be it.. 你可以讲是你妹妹选错人, i've got nth to say. i noe u loved her, i'm sorry bout the lost & i hav no wish to pick up a quarrel wif u*

Sharon Gwee Xue Lin [1994-2011]

I'm sorry for not being there when you're on your death bed, i wasn't informed regarding your stay in the hospital.. I lost the last chance to hold you tight & tell you i'm sorry for not following up with you despite knowing you wnt wanna let me see you in pain. I felt so guilty to hav known that i was the last person that didn't turn up to see you for the last time :'(

R.I.P dearest girl girl.. u'll always be my little silly girl~
那年的你到现在都是一样，到我老了也不会变..
20.02.2011 5:35pm

2011-02-13T02:35:00.001+08:00

爱怎么了？我怎么了？一句话都没有说..
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子！
坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私 do you noe tat!?
你挣扎过,你要我懂, 那谁来懂我心里的黑洞?
谁真的知道其实我也挣扎过，试着去原谅她，接受她？
谢谢你教会我爱需要两颗心, 提醒我痛会唤醒勇气, 最后还要谢谢你曾让我这样的爱过你~
我们的故事真难忘, 太多的回忆和希望..不管它有多疯狂我都愿意一生收藏！
我们的故事不能忘, 太多的情节要要发展..一个人确实好难过而思念也是一种痛...
对爱情自己是太自信, 失败了我输得起...过去已经过去, 眼前的我会珍惜~
抱歉的话别再提, 就到这里我真心愿意让他替我爱你.

只要能够远远这样看着你, 就算伤心心里还是好想你, 只要能够静静这样陪着你, 就算分手我还是选择喜欢你!
你的爱就像是一个没说完的句子, 没有人不会变而我已经懂事..
但是请你真心的爱我一次，两个人的世界原来不是那样子~爱这一次就可以解释
最后爱情是怎么一回事？两个爱过的人变得不认识
谁来急救没有感觉的彼此，我在你的心中没有了位子！
到底爱情是怎么一回事？太多的故事结局都是如此~
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂? 我想我还是不够成熟吧..

其实我不怕再次被她伤，最怕就是面对你离开以后的日子~
但是你永远不会明白，我们的爱并不是应为不舍得而维持下去的..
只是因为你不想败给她所以撑下去，一定不会长久。。
我宁愿失去, 第一次使我单纯，现在的第二次可以说我活该也可以说是命中注定吧~
watever it is, i dun wanna care anymore.
my Valentine's eve sux totally, i hate it so much~
i'm cryin out sorrowfully, but WHO CARES?
wat a joke, a big man cryin in the middle of the nite?
ok i'll jus be quiet for a moment..nites all~

2011-02-11T23:15:00.001+08:00

其实你不懂我的心, 我永不在乎掩藏真心
怕自己不能负担对你的深情所以不敢靠你太近..
I love you..所以只能说声对不起, 任何藉口都没有
I love you..已来不及好好去珍惜, 后悔很多
I love you..对你的挚爱从不曾改变, 要你快乐
I love you..好想对你说却来不及, 后悔已太多
不该让你无辜流下失措的泪, 心碎认识你陌生的世界..
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝, 多想能在和你梦里爱多一次~
很沉重看你走着每一步, 它应该是幸福的路！
狠心推开你, 是挽不回的错误; 像你离得无反顾
你身上纹着我给你的笑, 对我绝美的惩罚
想问, 已无法..原来曾经拥有过还比失去痛苦 :'(
我身上永远烙着你的笑, 那么绝美的惩罚....

为何我的坚强会瞬间瘫痪，爱为何不在场？
我已经找不到爱的方向了，我在你的心中到底还剩多少？
忽然想到一起开始的旅程，这几个字有种温暖的气氛
如果用来形容我们是不是很巧妙传神？
从没想过事情会这样发生，原本陌生的人闯进了人生..从此生命中多出你，也多出无限可能
一起作伴，一起游玩，一起分享青春的宝藏，一起前进，一起转弯，一起想下一个梦想！
什么都不想错过，用心感动..这旅程中因你而加倍的感动~
让我多记下一些沿路的感受，那将会是我最美最好的收获 :)
这是一段我们秘密的旅程, 别人很难了解其中的兴奋
可惜我没空理会他们因为我在意的只有你...
感谢你愿意陪伴我, 不然我会很寂寞.

2011-02-10T23:15:00.003+08:00

what if one day i'm no longer there to wait for your msgs to slp at nite?
what if one day i'm no longer there to sms you in the morning?
what if one day i'm no longer there meeting you on our anniversaries?
what if one day i'm no longer there to tell you i love you?
what if one day i'm no longer there for you as soon as i could?
what if one day i'm no longer there to let you depend on?
what if one day i'm no longer there to pick up your calls?
what if one day i'm no longer there reply your msgs?
what if one day i'm no longer there hug you in dark & cold nights?
what if one day i no longer stand infront of you to protect you frm others?
what if one day i no longer look forward to see your face everyday?
what if one day i no longer look forward to call you when you're free to talk?
what if one day i no longer eager to meet you on my off days?
what if one day i no longer call you to eat before i eat?
what if one day i no longer look into your eyes?
what if one day i no longer miss you?
what if one day i no longer miss your voice?
what if one day i no longer miss your presences?
what if one day i no longer bother bout your health?

so many 'what if(s)', will you notice i was here for you all the while?
will you miss having me around you?
or you just miss having someone to protect you frm dangers?
will you go around to look for a shattered heart?
will you use a tissue to wipe away those bloods dripping out frm my heart?
will you believe i truly loved frm the deepest point of my heart?
will you hold me bck & tell me you cant live without me?
will you hold my hands & promise never to let go no matter what happens?
will you tell me you love me in my face even when i'm fat & ugly?
will you ask for patch & change when i asked for a break becuz of your attitude?
will you, will you, will you, will you, will you?

I've got tons of 'what if(s)' & will you(s)'..
but hu's gonna reply me to all those ques i had to myself?
no one i guess.. cuz i know all your replies~
broken hearted zhi an is bck. . . .cuz someone is leaving...

2011-02-09T23:00:00.002+08:00

放弃了放弃了放弃了无奈
放弃了放弃了放弃了无奈
放弃了放弃了放弃了无奈
放弃了放弃了放弃了无奈

还记得我们还是彼此的唯一
接受了我们情侣关系的是你
没结果了放弃忘不了逃避
体验过了无数又复杂爱情
某一晚在街的恰巧遇我问候你回应
发现你已不是单身的你 Girl
当我知道你们相爱
有了开始有了未来
在我心里放不下的也该释怀
收拾好把它掩埋
当我知道你们相爱
我的心里泛起许多无奈
这时候我该有个专属幸福
我会不停的等待等待着未来

床底的箱子里一叠叠的回忆
再厚的思念释放以后就忘记
没结果了放弃忘不了逃避
体验过了无数又复杂爱情
某一晚在街的恰巧遇我问候你回应
发现你已不再眷念的你
当我知道你们相爱
有了开始有了未来
在我心里放不下的也该释怀
收拾好把它掩埋
当我知道你们相爱
我的心里泛起许多无奈
这时候我该有个专属幸福
我会不停的等待等待着未来

RAP:我躺在我的沙发上
看着我们的照片一张接一张
I don’t know since when
那感觉不一样
你的美现在已放在我心上
每分每秒每个角落
我会不停的探索
寻找完美的恋曲
Move on Move on Move on
在街灯下巧遇
我问候你回应
发现已不再眷恋着你

当我知道你们相爱
有了开始有了未来
在我心里放不下的也该释怀
收拾好把它掩埋
当我知道你们相爱
我的心里泛起许多无奈
每个人都该有个专属幸福
我会不停的等待等待着未来..

Happy 1½ Year K.I.S.S Anniversary YSCHELLE LIM Y.S!!!
hahas nw we're onli waitin for V Day!

2011-02-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today was quite a normal day :)
i wok up at ard 1plus in the afternoon.. charged my lil mp3 while usin facebook
i left hus at ard 2plus to meet baby at her hus bus stop.
we planned to go out today, but her had a project to finish so i waited for her at her hus~
she demanded me to cook her maggie & so i did as a gd bf ^^ hahas BHB! >.<
after we finished the maggie, i washed up the plates & proceed to do my fav thing!
watch TV!!! its ard 4plus 5, channel U got alot of entertainment shows on =D
soon its 6pm, they finished their projects & we're prepared to go 'dating'!!
i promised to wear couple tee on our anni, but i didn't due to the interview earlier =X
so i wore it today ^^ we went to Marina for a walk at the Chun Dao He Pan 2011
had fun ther, we went for dinner at ard 8plus 9.. Wanted to go Sakae, but closed liao..
we then went to Yoshinoya, but i felt kinda bastard..
i place an order frm Yoshinoya & i went BK to buy Mushroom Swiss~
baby worse, sat at Yoshinoya but bought KFC stuffs on the table!
hahas end up we went out to eat our stuffs :) its fun & enjoyin man!
we finished everythin ard 10plus, took 960 home..
we chatted bout baby's fear & my childhood on our way bck~
we laughed out loud lyk nobody's business, childhood times are real sweet <3
i even tok bout someone whom i already let go, no longer waiting for~
soon we reached bpp, we alight the bus & cabbed bck to baby's hus, then mine.
i reached home ard 11.50pm?

today's post is short but hu cares ya?
wat matters mos is the times spent & warmth memories rewinded :]

2011-02-07T23:18:00.004+08:00

Heh Heh! Today's our 18th Monethsary!
time flies real fast man, I almos din realized tat its Feb 7th today!
[thank God i rmb-ed, or else i'l be dead meat by now :D]
i went for an interview at Parkroyal for my traineeship in Western Culinary Arts.
baby had to attend sch today, so we met each other ard 4plus 5?
the interview was a totally lousy experience ther, both me & Raphael hate it ttm!
nw tat they told us tat tmr they'll announce the results, we wished we wnt get it..
arbo sure die ther one, lk at tat Chef & the HR's jiao bin.. totally screwed man!

after the interview we went to CCK to meet baby to go to Chevrons to mak payment.
S$410 to book a chalet for 3D2N! [hehes its for my b'day, bt i wasn't the one payin]
though we encounter some probs durin payment, bt it was settled quickly~
after tat we cabbed down to Turf City to hav our dinner! Raphael paid for it.
we quickly settle down for dinner as Raphael has to be home before 10pm!
its already 8.05pm when we reach, so i cooked some chicken for everybody~
after awhile we rested & chit chatted.. it was fun :)

i realized whenever we [me & baby] go out, Raphael would always be ther wif us ^^
we went Genting in 5, 2 of them went on their own & ther left the 3 of us~
however, we do enjoy each other's companion throughout, perhaps jus the 3 of us would be nice in future outings or anything.. BUT 1st of all, Yschelle has to change her attitude or else things wnt turn out nice :S

overall for today, we're all tired but happy! :)
baby sent me a text when i reached home,
well, it goes lyk tis: 'When we first met, I have no idea you would be so important to me. Happy 18th Monthsary, Baby !'
this simple & short msg truly touched my heart, cuz i nv knew i would be so impt to someone.
no one has ever said tis to me, even durin my longest r/s i hav nv heard of tis before..
ok tats almos all for today, shall see if tmr we hav any new updates~ ^^

2011-01-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

2010-12-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

wats wrong wif u? had been givin me attitudes recently.
u treat me gd n mak me feel gd when u're gd,
bt u giv me hell when u're goin through hell?
first time u tell me tat i'm guailan, first time u spared a thought for urself..
gd for u, i'm happy for u.. bt u din realized u're slowly pushing me away~
i'm nt feelin veri gd nw, recently.. i hate tis life!
first is my health, then its my mother, nw its u~
nice, tis mth had been the nicest mth EVER! :-@
jus becuz u've got ur own probs doesn't mean ppl doesn't,
jus becuz u're frustrated doesn't mean others ain't,
jus becuz u're used to throwin tempers as n when u lyk,
bt i'm sry to tell u tat i definitely wnt allow tis kind of thin repeat itself twice!
i'm nt gonna say much or else u'll say i'm complaining etc etc~
shall jus kp it to myself, ar u satisfied nw?
screw my life, 妈妈闹自杀, 女朋友发脾气..

thank god for a brother lyl Raphael, always ther for me~
words couldn't describe hw grateful i'm havin u in my life..

2010-12-18T01:30:00.002+08:00

i suddenly mis my mother.. :'(
tat pair or lovely hands tat held me frm fallin when i was young,
tat soft & sweet voice to my ears whenever i cant slp at nite,
tat 慈祥的双眼 tat always looked deep into my heart~
hw long mor can she walk wif me? God pls dun tk her away frm me..
i reali cnt tk it i swear!
whenever i hear her callin me, my heart aches..
nt becuz anythin bt becuz she sounded weaker each time i see her~
she gav me 100 ringgit when i go to malaysia, bt mummy i din use it.
u noe hw precious it is to me? its ur 血汗钱, i treasure it mor den anythin else,
watever u gav me is priceless, jus lyk my life & the rights to breathe.

在我眼里你永远最美, 连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
很想说有你这个妈妈, 我是全世界最幸福的孩子,
我还有很多话想对你说，很想说的你是否听得见？
你知道每次你对我说那些话我的心有多痛？
爸爸问我什么事，我却只能说没事~
每次看着你我的心碎得无法愈合，放佛被人用刀往心里刺似的
痛得无法用简单言语来形容，真的..
妈，我很想你..想见你但是我没有勇气..
因为我知道我看到你会忍不住大哭~
我什么都不要, 你知不知道; 若你懂我这一秒，你能不能不要离开..？

2010-12-14T02:34:00.002+08:00

oh well, it has been a long time since i las blogged?
haha i suddenly got alot of thoughts goin through my mind which watching 下一站幸福.
tis show taught me alot, made me think bck alot too?
perhaps tis is my destiny, my life..
i promised 老婆 nt to mention her again but i dunnoe y when i watch tis show,
al our shared memories came bck out of a sudden..
5yrs plus, can say its a long period of time but to her & others?
its jus nth but a waste of time? seriously, it brks my heart knowin the truth..
没想到我这个情场浪子既然会惨败一个女人的手上？很可笑吧？
wat a joke i played on myself, 真心付出是不可能得到回报的！
thank god, u took pity on me, put a wonderful girl in my life to forget the past.
to forget someone i deeply loved for 5yr plus, someone tat left a scar in my heart~

Yschelle Lim, u're the one i wanna cherish nw.
i've lost someone i love becuz i didn't hav the courage to face her rejections.
i'm nt gonna repeat the same mistake again.
first bitten, twice shy? i understand & i've tried moving on..
i swear i reali tried, bt i jus dun understand y is tat scar acting up once in awhile. i din mean to mention her at times, i'm sorri.. :(
老婆，我的心真的好痛好痛哦。。可惜你现在不在我身边..不能帮我擦眼泪~
我发现原来是我把对她的爱压抑得自己忍不住了，才会像现在这样~
我真的真的真的好难受，此时此刻只有你能谅解我了。。
无论如何，我们一起是因为真的爱你而不是因为空虚无聊或寂寞！
只是我始终无法忘记她，始终得承认她在我生命里扮演过一个很重要的角色。对不起
if u cant forgiv me den u may leave, i noe i'm too ridiculous le..
afterall, she's my very first .................................. love..

2010-12-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

hey people! i'm leaving to Genting tmr morning at 6am le.
tonight packing thins den all of us gather at baby's hus,
cuz her hus nearest to boon lay.. total 5 of us goin, sadly 2others couldn't come >.<
oh wel i nv packed my luggage before, thus i dunnoe hw to pack?
i had to trouble baby to pack for me tonight, means rush to my hus after wrk.
opps, i'm sorry to trouble u babe~ i packed all til lyk in a state of mess lyk tat.
lucky got u, or else i reali dunnoe hw to put my shirts den can fit in =X
okok i'm rushing out to wrk le, mus go gt my passport frm liao papa nw..

byeeeeeeeee ppl! miss me c'mon!!! :D
will catch up wif ur after i'm bck on the 10th!

2010-12-05T11:00:00.001+08:00

知人知面知己知彼又知心
古人说这就是所谓知音
相知相惜相亲相爱也相忆
朋友你会不会常把我想起
何年何月何日何时再相聚
何时能把酒言欢畅回忆
很多很多很深很深的回忆
很多歌我只想要为你唱起
春秋时期远近知名伯牙琴艺
沉鱼也出水马儿仰秣聆听
聆听寂寞的声音
举世知名不如一个知音
直到子期闻琴解开伯牙心境
高山流水风景似有灵悉
高山青流水静如镜
无言却胜过有言的天地
听宫商角徵羽
那歌词未写上的是那份弦外的延长音
斟一杯酒一抱拳一句关心
在千年之后再延续不变的旋律
当春雪融夏景
秋风为我捎封信
冬冬锣隆冬墙冬冬锣隆隆冬墙墙
又是思念的四季
某年某月某天伯牙再访子期
风景依旧绿子期却已归西
触景触琴即伤情
伯牙绝弦只因再无知音
千年过去当我再度拨弄琴韵
更多冷箭更多冷言冷语
请你听请轻轻倾听
唱给我永远不离弃的知音
冬冬锣隆冬墙冬冬锣隆隆冬墙墙

伯牙绝弦 & 柴米油鹽醬醋茶 a veri nice song!

2010-12-04T23:12:00.001+08:00

你这么美你这么媚
你这么美你这么美美美妹妹
你这么美你这么媚
你这么美美美妹妹

你是寒冬里的花蕾你是西施搅乱了春水
你是天使般的恩惠你是我宠爱的贵妃
世间的伤悲全都被你摧毁
你是美酒千杯我怎能不醉
不小心爱上 oh你的香味
只有你占据了视线其它的我都看不见
这是爱情或这是对你的迷恋
你这么美你这么媚
你这么美你这么美美美妹妹
你这么美你这么媚
你这么美美美妹妹
怎么那么美
是你让我想入非非
想当一个偷心雅贼
爱已萌芽万分珍贵
没有时间可以浪费
我愿意用生命换一个机会
让我吻上你的嘴
Hablo Espanol 给你拉丁味道
你的美就是一种美好
别责怪我的一点冒昧
我想陪你度过年年岁岁
你太美你太媚
为了你我能征服大江南北
沉鱼落雁难望你项背
文字不足形容你的美
嘿宝贝给我你的拥抱
让我永远珍藏你的美

为什么在我眼里你永远那么美？

2010-11-28T23:55:00.003+08:00

well; today is quite awesome as i got our c. jacket, my charger!
n the BEST thin was...........i saved mor $$ den las mth although i shopped! LOLS!
hmm.. today was a tired day as i wrk morning shift, tmr is a noon one..
meet baby at cck, went to gt some stuffs for our 1st oversea trip,
den after cck went my hus bath & change before goin to Wan Yee's hus
as she invited me over for her pre b'day celebration~
was quite honored as i'm the onli one she invited to share her big day wif her!
even her bes friends oso she nv cal? feel kinda weird~
[even though her mother watched me grow up since pri sch..]
after dinner at Wan Yee's hus, baby & me go over to meet a PREGNANT LADY!
lols! actuali is Harwinder, she wanna borrow some DVDs frm me to watch
cuz she nw everyday at home 安胎, cnt anyhw go out.. poor thin, cnt play lo! :P
after tat walked bck my hus tk baby's bag bag den we go cwp tk bus to her hus,
i den took bus bck home, till nw all my bones nearly brk into halves~!
haiz.. old liao, cnt tahan too much activities at one shot ah >.<''

we can actuali quarrel over other ppl's things proves tat we're nt firm enough.
we allowed others to step in & turn thins upside down for us,
we allowed ppl to push us to the near end,
we allowed ppl to hurt each other by makin u vent all ur frustrations on me,
& me venting it out on blog.. cuz i dunnoe hw to even start the frustrations..
so i can onli kp it in my heart & gt those a.k.a 内伤(s)~

ok la after one whole day today was tired ttm already!
nites ppl, goin to slp sooooooooooooooooon~

2010-11-26T22:00:00.011+08:00

i felt so frustrated! argh! :@
i asked u y mus u mak me contact my friends when they're doin things for u?
u said its becuz they're my friends so i mus settle..
when ur friends hav probs i'm also the one tat hav to settle,
& when i failed to meet ur expectations u flares up at me.
i'm tired of tis kind of life, seriously..
u're wrkin so m i, u're tired so m i, u're sick so m i; so wats the diff?!
after much thinkin i still felt our character doesn't match abit.
u probably got used to handle things the way u always do, the harder way.
tats y ppl ar afraid of u & dun dare to go against u..
i'm sorry, i'm quite a easy person.. i'm USED to handle thins & ppl the same way.
i wnt treat anyone better or bias towards hu..
if someone disappoint me mor den 2x i'll giv tat person up
& i'll tk both my hands off watever tat person does frm tat point onwards.
i may nt get thins done as well as u do usin ur way,
bt i believe if i treat ppl wif patience & love they'll do bck the same way?
although thins ain't nicely done, bt at least i tried..?

每次你任性时说的一些话, 你知道那有多伤人吗?
但我顶多只气个三分钟, 最后依然体贴的送你回家..
有时想如果我不是一直让, 你也许会懂得学着体谅?
但是我完全无法硬着心肠, 做让你有一点难过失望的事
总觉得有疼你的责任, 要你是最快乐最单纯的人; 最轻松最自然的人
因为你让我的心变得丰盛, 原来不奢望的变成可能
我想不遮掩也是一种信任, 爱得了解包容才算爱得完整.

静静地陪你走了好远好远, 连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变; 看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变, 以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转我的脸不让你看见, 深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍..
我吻过你的脸你双手撑在我的双肩, 那时的感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼我总是可以看见失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸但你已经不在我的身边
断开的感情线我不要做断点, 只想在睡前再听见你的蜜语甜言

哭了才发现自己真的受伤了..
你曾对我说你永远是我的, 而我为了爱情把自己的幸福都忘了; 只要你快乐我就快乐
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了, 总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
男人歌唱的都是不敢说的心情. . . Haiz..

u'll never understand....u got ur reasons & so do i..

2010-11-24T22:00:00.001+08:00

we both noe tat I shouldn't be here,
tis is wrong, baby it's killin me & it's killing u too.
both of us ar tryin to be strong...
the hardest thin i'll ever hav to do is to lk u in the eye & tel u tat I dun love u,
the hardest thin i'll ever hav to lie is to show no emotion when u start to cry,
cuz i cant let u see wat u meant to me..
when my hands are tied & my heart's not free
the hardest thin i'll ever had to do,
is to turn ard n walk away, pretendin I dun love u >.<
fate has a place n time so we can get on wif our life.
i've got to be cruel to be kind, al my love i'll be sendin, u'll nv noe..
cuz ther can nv be a happy ending. . .

in my world before u, i lived outside my emotions, didn't noe wher i was goin..
until tat day i found u & hw u opened my life to a new paradise~
in a world torn by change, stil wif al of my heart, till my dying day.
when u smile, i can feel al my passion unfoldin,
when ur hand brushes mine, a thousand sensations seduce me,
cuz i do, cherish u for the res of my life, u dun hav to think twice..
i'll love u still, frm the depths of my soul.
it's beyond my control, i've waited so long to say tis to u..
if u're askin do i love u tis much, i do, baby..

my life is urs alone, the onli love i've ever known.
ur spirit pulls me through when nth else will do.
everynite i pray on bended knee tat u'll always be MY EVERYTHING.
nw all my hopes & all my dreams ar suddenly reality,
u've opened up my love to feel a kind of love tat's truly real,
a guidin light tat'll nv fade,
ther's nt a thin in life tat i would ever trade for the love u giv,
i hope u'll always noe tat u're my everything.

baby, i see forever in ur beautiful eyes,
i can see heaven in your smile & when i hold you close i dun wanna let go.
becuz deep in my soul i noe u're the onli light i see,
ur love means everythin to me, i noe tat we'll nv part..
cuz u'll always be near, here in my heart :)
if the sun should refuse to rise, the moon doesn't hang in all night,
the tides wnt change, seasons rearrange & when the world is through,
i'll still love u.. :-*
can i be ur shelter frm the storm, the fire tat keeps u warm & ur light in the dark?
let me noe ur ans asap.. <3

2010-11-23T22:58:00.010+08:00

mayb to u, i've always been in contact or draggin my prob wif her for veri long,
in the actual fact tat after me & her quarrel on the phone, we nv contact anymor.
the last time was on her b'day & she din even reply a 'thanks'.
i promised to myself & to u tat i'll delete her no. & i did it, didn't i?!
perhaps everythin i did to prove tat i dun love her anymor was all junks.
forget it, i'm not gonna bother bout anythin or anyone.
think watever u wan, say watever u wan, i'm nt gonna bother.
be it D, Y or which ever A-Z, NOT MY PROBLEM ANYMORE AS OFF TODAY.
i will not mention anythin, jus let it be..
i wished i can vent out al the unhappiness out instead of buryin it deep down,
y everybody noes hw to vent out except for me?! is tis wat u cal LIFE?
i had to kp quiet even though i'm blowin up on the top of my head,
i had to smile & pretend nth at all, i had to even entertain our love.

if I had to live my life without u near me,
the days would all be empty & the nights would seem so long..
with u I see forever so clearly,
i might have been in love before, bt i nv felt this strong.
our dreams ar young n we both noe they'll tk us wher we wanna go
nothing's gonna change my love for u, u ought to noe by nw hw much i love u
one thin u can be sure of i'll nv ask for mor than ur love
the world may change my whole life through bt nothing's gonna change my love for u
if the road ahead is nt to be so easy, our love wil lead the way for us.
jus lyk a guiding star, i'll be there for u..
if u should ever need me, u dun hav to change a thing, i love u jus the way u're
so come with me and share the view, i'll help u see forever too.

假如哪天你和他们其中一个在一起我不会选择当第三者的第三者.
我不会有所挽留因为从你离我而去的那一秒你就已经告诉了我，我不是你所想要常相厮守的那个了
丑话我可说在前头，不要以后说是我变了
我再次重复，我不爱陈秋桦了！更从她向我坦然一切时对她彻底的失望！
我不敢相信我第一次真心爱的人是那么的不分青红皂白，黑的都可以让她说成白的.
我真的很失望，很难过，很气..但我还能做什么？任命吧~
我想说的你已明了，请不要再说爱我. 别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
过去的就让它过去，我不想联想起那些不堪回想的过去.
我已经把失去的当成是一种收获，悲伤的剧情太多所以我不想历史再次从演..
你不知道我为什么离开你，我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨碎落满地，但在心里是如此的清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心盘旋在你看不见那高空里，还有多都是你不知道的事...

2010-11-16T23:46:00.008+08:00

第一次你陪我坐着, 我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏著, 害怕我难过
不追问到底为什么是我最后的温柔..
想笑着, 附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了?

我舍不得, 可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得, 只是该停了, 没有我你会跟好的..

我舍不得, 最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的, 错了就错了
不用担心我, 我不爱你了

我希望至少在你的记忆里的我，是微笑的
亲爱的, 有你牵著我的那些日子真的好快乐..
这都是成年往事了, 谢谢你所留给我那份最后的温柔.
谢谢你在我受伤时关心以及为我奔波.
你最后的温柔我都记得, 或许对你而言并不重要因为你已经找到你的另外一半了.
但对我而言, 那些是你留下的最后一份礼物, 好让我有机会再一次抓紧你, 近距离的看看你那憔悴的脸..

我们错过的说再多还是不会回来的
不用担心我, 我走了 (:

was rewinding bck at those happy moments i had with you earlier,
it started frm we first became close in canteen,
till i used u to get rid of a girl as u're the only one there tat could save me bck then,
till we 误打误撞 & became Gan-Laogong, Gan-Laopo,
till i fell deeply inlove with you ever since u became my GLP,
till we gang up against ur new classmate, LooJing, bck then outside ur class,
till i hugged u whenever u cry for some reasons i dunnoe,
till i realized we've almost everythin in common at tat time,
till i hurt u & made u hate me ever since,
till i watch u frm afar whenever i can so tat i can protect u secretly,
till i was chosen to go to ur class for MT lessons,
till i correct ur works for u durin MT lessons,
till you acknowledge what i've done for u on ur MT book,
till i leave express MT, leave ur class becuz i failed my conduct & nt becuz of results,
till my class went frm 2nd floor to 4th floor, which is jus a wall away frm URS,
till i take my N lvl & peep at u whenever i hav the chance to,
till i saw someone cried becuz she failed her papers & u went over to console her,
till u walked out of toilet & reprimand me for somethin tat NV happened before,
till i purposely acc a friend to wait for her friend so tat i can grab a chance to see ur face,
till i graduated & leave sch forever,
till we attend the graduation ceremony at ADSS a.k.a the last day i can ever see u again,
till u finish ur papers & leave sch forever,
till i pass u $$ for Miss Sharifah's wedding,
till u last called me & chatted for 1hr ++ over the past,
all the way till nw, i'll record them all in a disc..

i rmb i once told u tat if u wan me to giv up Yschelle for u at tat time, i can do it anytime as long as u come bck to me.
i dunnoe hw much u noe bout my love for u bck then, i can only tell u 全世界都知道我对你的爱，就除了你..
oh well, if now u ask me to giv up Yschelle for u, i'll jus smile at u & walk away til u really understand me,
till one day when u really noes hw to cherish me & love me for hu i'm, THEN u come n tok to me (:
in the past, perhaps ppl thinks tat my promises ar all meant to be broken,
its jus becuz i dun hav enough time to mak it happen, to ppl it might be an excuse, bt to me its a REASON.
giving u my blessings already proved i'm gentleman enough to accept u gav ur heart to him, another him.
& the same thin, i gav my everythin to Yschelle jus lyk wat u did~ i haven got ur blessings YET.
i'm waiting for u to giv me ur blessings for dunnoe y, lols~!!! -.-''

baby, lyk i said, if she cant accept my worst, she dun deserve my best.
i noe i've been mentioning bout her alot for the pas 1yr, i'm sorry for tat.
its nt becuz i haven forgot bout her, its jus tat she jus so happen to appear in my topics!
NO MATTER what happens, i'm always gonna be there for u as immediate as possible;
not allowing any direct/indirect harm to be done to u OR at least reduce the percentage to the lowest!
one thin i can assure u is, i will NEVER go bck to qiuhua.. i cant afford to fall tat deep & hard again.
many thins happened recently, i'm vexed enough.. i dun wan mor troubles to come in our near future.
i jus wanna hav a peace & simple life, tats all.. can u giv me peace?
after tat fall, thanks god i manage to stand up again now.
i'll continue to stand strong, i've got over her & bares no feeling for her totally.
i jus hope tat guy she choose herself treats her right, tats all.
dun assume or suspect anythin, u noe i cant accept the fact,
the fact tat she KNOWS i'm innocent & yt puttin al the blames to me, alone to suffer.
the fact tat she rather protect a friend to hurt me tat deep & left a deep scar in my heart.
i wanted to hate her, bt thinkin bck, i was at fault too so i can only hate myself.
我和她错过的，不管说得再多还是不会回来的..
既然她选择不珍惜我们之间的爱情，那我也没什么好保留的..
i've told u everythin through sms jus nw, u understand jiu can le (:
nights, i'm tired as my bck is aching & eyes ar closing........

ZhiAn's brain is now officially S-H-U-T-D-O-W-N.

.......LOADING.....IN......PROCESS.......

*OFF-ED*

2010-11-13T00:45:00.006+08:00

guess hu i saw at cwp las thursday?!?!?! hahas jus a friend actuali, someone i missed!
oh well, haven seen her for quite long a time, suddenly saw her when i turn my head,
abit stun + happy.. lols i oso dunnoe y. oh well lets skip tat :)

today, i'm leavin all my sorrows behind.. i'm lettin go i'll follow my heart,
i'm holdin on with all of my life.. it only jus began..
today, i'm walkin to the beat of ur heart..tk me all the way to the start~
ur heart it lives in mine, today....today is the day baby come bck!!!! :D
yay! i no ned to play games to kill my boredom anymor~
today i found my 1st love again, trustin u wif al tat i've..
no mor running wild, i'm urs for life; u've got me..
i hear ur voice tonite, ur heart is mine.
u noe deep down inside my heart i was so excited & happy to see my gf,
bt when she told me she's excited to see me again after 3days,
i gav her a cold reply.. actuali i'm downright excited ok!!!! >.haven seen her for a long time, seems tat she've aged ALOT.
opps, i might get hacked for typin the previous sentence man,
ltr she dun let me play soccer i die =X sry i tk bck my words can can can??

thanks baby for acc-ing me to attend my mei's b'day,
at the same time casuin u to remind of ur past by seein him.. i din mean it~
nw i totally dun feel lyk bloggin, leave me out for awhile i'm sry.
a call destroys everythin i'm havin nw.. :'(
u said u noe tat u're the dearest to us, yt u're doin tis to us!
i noe we've failed u as a child by mus u resort to tis step?!
u noe by doin so u'll definately change both me & didi'd life,
den y ar u doin tis to us?! explain explain explain! y!? y!? y!? :'(

God i really need your help right now, change my mum's mindset,
deliver her in times of crisis! i already failed her, God i noe u nv fail me..
God i'm praying to u real hard tis time, for tis once.. :'(

2010-11-09T23:45:00.006+08:00

today is such a screwed day.
i had a to hav tat kind of feeling when u're blamed for the lost of ur OWN thins!
argh! c'mon, i felt mor miserable den anyone when MY thins ar misplaced,
yt i'm gettin reprimanded for it?! wth kind of logic is this man?!
its forever the same, i lost somethin impt to me & i din wished for it, did it?!
if i lost my thins, i should be the frustrated one & u should be the comfortin ones!
yet u did it again n again. u seriously mak me feel as if i wanted to lose my thins.
instead of comfortin & relieving, u're adding on. ar those thins reali tat impt?
i might nt be a gd bf to u, if tats reali the case tell me so. i'll change ok?! i'll!
u said u'll change, honestly speaking i already dun expect anythin anymor, frm u.
i waited & waited, time ran, days passed, mths gone..did anythin happen?
i'm sorry for addin on to ur burdens due to so many events comin out.
photoshoot $$ since i've already paid $838.00 le, jus let me finish the payment.
nw for genting we've agreed to split, u pay for food the res i pay.
the rest will continue when u're bck frm ur trip.

2010-11-08T23:35:00.014+08:00

i'm such a useless boyfriend/husband of baby.
i allowed my girlfriend to suffer for the first time in her life.
i allowed her to undergo everything & still i add on to her burdens.
cal myself a gd bf?, claim to love her alot, promised to giv her happiness etc etc de.
i'm totally unfit to claim or promise anything.
if i dun get $1000 in my acc for this mth i can forget bout goin out & play nex mth!
[nex mth after the 9th] F+SML. Totally lousy.
i can imagine tat i cant actuali eat & play everyday lyk nth happened,
meanwhile i'm spending her savings as if i'm opening a tap to sav me frm thirst!
failed bf, spoilt brat, promise breaker & a heart smasher.
i can GND, lyk seriously. >.<
i'm nt spend money on cab for at least 6mths!
if incase of emergency, tat will be an exception.
if i'm late for wrk den tats my own f**king prob, cnt cab!

我们之间说好的幸福早已被我打碎..
你可否知道当你告诉我你从来没有那么累和辛苦过，我的心有多疼？
是我，是我害了你沦落到今天这个地步.
要不是我的出现，或许你会过得好一些？是我扰乱了你原本幸福快乐的日子.
可能是我总爱让往事跟随，怕过去白费，所以造成对你一定的影响.
是我总以为要体会人生就要多爱几回，才会在无意之间伤害了那么多无辜的人.
我已经不能肯定你是不是还会关心，
爱与不爱都需要勇气，或许你不相信我很满意这样的结局，
或许你不相信我没有一丝的埋怨和悔意，
虽然你是我的最初，虽然你是我的最终，虽然你是我的唯一深爱的人
或许我每次都提到我或我们个人的过去，但我把回忆撑开看时，需要很多的勇敢你知道吗？
都已经抓紧彼此的手了，我们却还是走散 :(
如果你觉得累或辛苦，你不必再爱我，你尽管放开，不必觉得为难..
反正时间总会把痛冲淡，让我怀念一回,如果你放开，我会在离开以后不对你展开纠缠挽留方式.
但是你要记住，不管发生什么事我都不会离开你，除非你自己放手．．
原来相爱总比想念短暂，至少我记住了你的笑有多灿烂.
你若留下了什么在我这里我一定不还你，拥抱着所有温暖就像你还在我身旁似的..
那一句'我爱你'我们都说得..................太晚.
老婆，我爱你..我知道这句话来得太晚，但至少我始终说出来了. :'(

at this moment, i believed. i believed he's true to u this time round.
becuz u gav me a feeling i nv had, a feeling of settling down.
i dunnoe y, dun ask me y..tis is the 1st time i felt stable.
the first time i wanna stop my life for someone nt even her.
i noe becuz i can lk at other girls & stumble when i knew i love her.
i can play ard lyk as if i'm single & AVAILABLE when almos everyone noes i love her.
bt i cant tis time round, i felt guilty. makin someone losing his 1st love.
becuz of me, someone lost his first love..becuz of me u cant get 你想象的幸福.
becuz of me many thins happened, i shouldn't appear in some ppl's life.
i created a mess & leave them to clear up lyk nobody's business.
perhaps nv to promise anyone anythin might be better to me & others...
i'm tired, tmr still mus wak up earli to brin ah ma down walk walk..
nights peeps! i'll nv forget hw our love story started. 1235AM ; 070809.

2010-11-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

today was quite a sunny day.
baby came my hus to meet me, actuali is i bluff her come.
she was veri sad, so i asked her over to 'console' her.
end up i did not, cuz i told her i already cheered her up on tha phone!
wahahahas she was lyk 'god damm it, u lied' :) funny sia her reaction.
after tat baby asked me to cook maggie for her & i did as requested.
she's playin her stupid bomberman game on y3.
after eating we're gettin rdy to go out to CWP to meet Shien,
we're SUPPOSED to be a surprise to buddy, but failed.
nvm, we still went & meet her at sakae.....
as usual me & my stupid ideas, i bought a candle tat cant be blown off!
hahahas looking at her curious face maks me wanna laugh out loud at sakae!
but i didn't ok, i held bck. took quite afew pics tough bt nt gonna upload here.
catch us at FACEBOOK! :D my dearest gf has uploaded it for us.

we left at ard 7plus to 883 as i need to consult a doctor for my MC today.
after tat we cabbed to the temple at marsiling area,
the one i used to go when i was young..
we reached ther ard 8:05pm? say 'Hi' to the elders there & sat down wif baby.
we left our sits awhile ltr becuz i wanna intro baby to my childhood places.
i dunnoe y, but tis is the 1st time i ever wanna brin someone to my past.
oh well, she said i brought bck her memories..? wow.
after tat we go bck to our sits & wait for our foods to arrive!
tat stupid waitress got my drink & baby's mixed up. -.-''
nvm, ignore her.. spoil my mood de dumb dumb.
we ate & chatted while sitting ther wif my relatives.
baby is so gd, she noes i saw somethin i'm interested in & bought it for me! <3
haha tat thin cost her $3, i enjoyed playin it..
after seein me enjoyin tat toy, baby decided to buy a 2nd one as spare!
lk at hw gd she's! jealous rite ppl out ther? wahahahahahs! thanks <3!
we went home at ard 10:50pm? baby cabbed home frm my hus here.

after i reached home, i took a quick bath & on com.
i checked my mails & fb [as usual], meanwhile waiting for her to online.
she texted me sayin she's usin com, bt we communicated through SMS!
cuz she seldom online msn, tsk! i online oso no use one! taoyan >.<
well my secret revealed! she realised i was the one behind those weird msgs on fb!
ok i'm sorry ok to lie to u, noein everythin & pretendin lyk nth :P
oh man, she called me when she knew its me. she sounded lyk police man.
scaryyyy.. 1st thin 1st, call my full name [as usual when i did somethin wrong].
den she'll ask the obvious & den scold the expected..
oh well i thought of admitting bt i jus din expect her to noe earlier den i thought!
i explained everythin & saved myself, phew :O
after tat i saw her fb, she posted some chinese word '一个字, 怕'
so i asked her wats wif tat word? is it becuz of me?
den she said partially [when its FULLY -.-'']..
oh well she told me bout her insecures & her fears etc,
all her insercures & fears is becuz of 1 solid reason which i shall nt mention here.
when she told me i felt lyk touching her head & tell her silently nex to her ears:
'Silly, i promised to be there for u for life, nv to leave unless u leave,
nv to change my heart no matter wat etc etc de, right?' 'dun be afraid, i'm always here, jus 9 stations or 45mins away baby' :)
ya we chatted til 3:43am & hang up. omg my shoulder is aching~
ok.. shall stop here as i promised my silly gf to slp before time.
nights readers [if ther's 1 awesome reader tonight]!

2010-10-26T23:50:00.003+08:00

its has been such a long time since i las touch tis blog.
mus hav been dead for veri long le >.< well i'm bck to resurrect it!
had been busy wrkin & playin, no time use com thus no new posts.
today was quite free thus decided to update thins happened recently.

ytd [25.10.10] went Bugis wif baby to meet Pei Yun [my dearest cellgroup leader].
cuz baby ned some guidance for her O lvl maths, so i meet her after wrk.
i slept while they revising, after tat ard 8plus PeiYun left.
me & baby was chit chatting till i realize a couple quarreling.
tat girl slap the guy continuously lyk mad woman lyk tat,
i den turned to baby n tel her tat if i were tat guy,
i would jus push the girl away & walked off. the girl continued slapping,
the guy wanted to beat her bck bt he held bck, probably becuz he cant bear to hit her?
but i swear, tat girl was reali too much. >.<
after tat we went up to foodcourt to hav our dinner before goin home.

today [26.10.10]
its my off day today! woots!
i slept al the way til 12plus 1? den wak up watch tv..
i left home at 4pm, went to cwp to buy ticket for Child's Eyes.
den proceed to fetch baby after her exams :)
suddenly felt kinda happy? tat we managed to stay loving after 1yr ++
thanks to her, i've become a better man & let go of the past.
i've always enjoyed my days out wif her no matter hw long it is,
i jus didn't hav the chance to tel her tat.. >.<
cuz i would always 'bully' her when we're outside,
actuali deep down i realized it wasn't a great feeling bullyin someone i love.
hmm.. baby dui bu qi, xiao yi ge! :D

2010-10-14T22:14:00.005+08:00

hmm.. recently heard that she's attached, i dunnoe whether should i be happy or sad.
i just somehw silently wished tat the guy she choose will treat her well,
nth to wish for, eventually she NEVER loved me before 所以我也不想对她有太多牵挂.
i'll still hand over those stuffs tat i ned to & to nv rmb of my wound left behind.
since she choose him over me, it only proves tat he's better den me. :)
i've got alot alot of words to tell her since 2006-2010,
everything came & went too fast for me to even stop a second n speak a word.
all the best to u & las long (as u said u would).
虽然我得不到你，但是我还是要有我该有的风度..
我真心的祝福你，虽然说出这一句话我知道我就从此失去了你和爱你的权利，但是我却不感到可惜....
因为你为我留下的回忆是没有人能取代的，全世界都知道我爱你，除了你.

对你唯一遗憾是离开那天我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来的话我不会哭泣，让你知道我可以很好 (like now ^^)
我爱你轰轰烈烈最疯狂，我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为你相信明天就是未来，不管情节有多坏我都不肯醒来
我爱你跌跌撞撞到绝望，我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和你不再属于这个地方；最初的天堂将演变成最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢？伤了，痛了，懂了就能好了吗？
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀，如今各自在人海流浪..

Go easy on my conscience cause it's not my fault.
I know I've been taught to take the blames.
Rest assured, my angels will catch my tears.
Walk me out of here, I'm in pain.
Lord I fear the cold, feel I'm getting old before my time.
As my soul heals the shame, I'll grow through this pain.
Lord I'm doing all I can to be a better man.

2010-09-22T01:18:00.005+08:00

I love you
所以只能说声对不起
任何藉口都没有

I love you
已来不及好好去珍惜
后悔很多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
像你离得无反顾

你身上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问已无法
原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

I love you
对你的挚爱从不曾改变
要你快乐

I love you
好想对你说却来不及
后悔已太多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
是挽不回的错误

你心上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过
远比失去痛苦

我身上永远烙着你的笑
那么绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

all tat i wanna say is expressed through tis song..
i wished i can tel u nt to cal me ltr, bt i wanna hear ur voice..... :'(

2010-09-21T17:00:00.001+08:00

oh wel tis few days has been real busy n frustrated..
life is downright fed up man!

1st, got a tiff wif my boss.
2nd, had prob in my r/s.
3rd, quarrelled over $$ wif father & wife.
4th, disappointed by someone i treated wif al my heart.
5th, everythin came in combo, one after another.

u can imagine hw fuck-up my life is base on the above 5points.
my GS, said things behind my back & pretended nth.
my gf, havin mood swings, showin her displease? testing my patience.
my fam, jus settled down.
my wrk, finali better.
my life, turnin up n down every sec, min, hr & day.

haiz.. got so tired of al these thins happening everyday.
god i wished i was deaf & mute den i can be the most peaceful person on earth!
reason: deaf so tat i no ned to hear al the troubles ard me.
mute so tat i cant say anythin to cause mor things.
按呢甘好?? ツ

2010-09-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

好久不见你还好嘛
你的小狗长大了吗
我的围巾还围着吗
我的相片都丢了吧啊
我剪不到后面头发
这个借口还不错罢
一把剪刀一堆废话
还不是想求求你回来吧!

麥擱一个人咧生气乎伊烦恼乎伊操心
虽然不关我ㄟ代誌谁叫他是我ㄟ兄弟耶
攏这么久就唰唰去想想秋天就马过去耶
冬天来临他会怕冷你不回來甘讲要我抱伊
按呢甘好

是我不好我沒有紧紧抱住你
你说泪流着很危险
如果等雨一起（等雨一起）流下不让同情发现

是我不好
我没有紧紧抱住你
你说泪流着很危险
如果等你一起流下不让同情发现
我对天空这颗那颗流星
大喊后会不会有奇迹
就算做朋友也没关系
为你改变了自己该不认识自己
不是我保持了自信
只是我拿出真心
开业不用这个那个香槟
去我的MR.J餐厅
点蜡烛顺便吃个甜品
细数你大肆不联络的韵律
冷战早已经不流行
赶快回来到我心里

i kept on repeatin tis song i dunnoe y..
its nice and relaxing..
i'm inlove wif tis song. i wanna learn the dance steps of tis song!

2010-09-16T23:45:00.002+08:00

hellos peepos .
well, i jus helping baby to update his blog .
he's reallie lazi ! dammmmmmmmn.
okae, nowsday we lyk keep going to 月圆河畔 makan sei.
venue is at clarke quay .
spent ard S$50 plus on makaning/drinking men! ..
we oso did went to marina barrage .
so mani fun and arguements men.
reallie . . . hahahs!
well. it has been 1year 1mth 2weeks .
looking forward to my 500th day photoshoot!
and my 1year 4mth de genting trip! :D
so mani events coming up soon .

well, i am stress w my studies .
thanks baby for his support uhs .
muacks! ❤

2010-08-11T00:20:00.010+08:00

to 傻瓜老婆:

I'm sorry sometimes or rather, mos of the time i'll get jealous thinkin tat others could mak u much mor happier den i could n they suit u mor.. My insecurities had hurt u mor den once, but its oso becuz i noe tat i'm neither the mos handsome, smartest, fun n exciting boy ard u.. Bt i hav nv thought tat u might felt the same way as i do.

走过多少路口，听过多少叹息？
这种迷茫心情我想谁都会有，幸运的是能分担你的愁 :)
能不能靠近一点？再近一点满足我心中小小的虚荣
其实你并不知道在我心中你最美，就像风雨过后天边的那道彩虹
如果你疲倦了外面的风风雨雨，明天的路你不知该往哪走那就留在我身边做我老婆，好不好？
虽然我的臂膀不够宽阔，但是应该足够成为你的温暖怀抱吧？
我一定会试着承受你偶尔的小脾气..
或许我还能偶尔给你一点意外，带给你一份欢笑，确保你有一个简单安心的小窝 :$
若可以还想陪你看日出和日落一直到老....

我知道我不是一个会耍浪漫的男人，但是我已经很努力的在学了！
在茫茫人海中遇到就是缘分，即使错过也是彼此内心里的一份收获
你的心我希望是我最懂，你哭泣时最想陪在你身边的一定是我.
这辈子注定与你在一起，我好想大声喊出我对你的爱
在心里从此永远有个你！
谢谢你让我遇到你，也让我爱上你
谢谢你给我的一切，我和你在一起的甜蜜和这份爱我会埋在我心底
不管风风雨雨，不问明天在哪里我都会永远的陪伴你，我爱你！

and baby btw! this is the 100th post!!!!

woohoo!!! you got it again! My 第一个一百!! :D

♥ !

2010-08-10T23:20:00.010+08:00

to someone:

假如你不放手，多年以后我不会恨你也不会怪你.
你有你爱人的权利，我不能控制你也不能逼你..
我会因为你爱我爱得那么深，爱得那么久而感动..我没有说谎，我是认真的...
希望你不要因我做出的选择或说出的话而恨我.

谢谢你替她着想，但是爱情没有谁对谁错，也没有什么因为而被特别对待这种事.
不要说谁比谁更适合谁，只要用心去爱，就算是天鹅也会爱上丑小鸭...
丑小鸭不是丑，只是还没遇到一个真正懂得欣赏它的人而已.
我不是对你冷漠，只是我比较忙，很少看手机..所以每次都晚回复你的简讯.

[08/09/10 replied]

所以你是想表示我们的相遇就像是恶梦的开始吗？
这两年里，你对我的感觉都一样吗？还以为你已经有了新欢..
我知道过去是我不对，我不好所以才会伤了你.
我不喜欢别人认为我把他们当作玩具，推来推去/丢来丢去似的..因为那从来不是我最想要表达的！
为什么你们女人总爱那么认为呢？有时男人也是因为自己心里有数所以才把你们让给别人的 ok!
你们就以为我们亲手把心爱的女人让给别的男人我们会好受吗？你们可曾为我们想过？
我们不说话不代表我们不在乎，不心痛，不舍得！是我们不善于表达自己的心里话，明白吗？！
你们讨厌男人喝酒，但是有想过男人喝酒是为了什么吗？还不是为了女人！

你总是为别人着想，可不可以自私一点？！就那么一次？勇敢的追求一个属于你自己的幸福！
我老是教你如何去解开别人的感情问题，难道你一点都没有学到吗？！
你这样傻傻的，人家说什么你就信，被骗了那些关心你的人会很伤心得你懂吗？
都已经满十八了，小姐快点长大吧..都可以嫁人了还那么傻..
别把朋友看得太重，最后会在你身边陪伴你的始终是你的家人，跟你最最最亲的人.
喜欢跟爱 = 天与地之间的差别 eh!
你可以为了你喜欢的人离开你爱的人，但是你不可以为了你爱的人离开你喜欢的人..
喜欢，给他一个两三年就或许消失成灰了..爱是一辈子得承诺.
我承认那时的我的确被 QiuHua 伤的很深，我对她的复出是众所周知的.
但在她眼里却什么都不是，我为了她流过不少眼泪，心碎过无数次....
虽然我和 QiuHua 相识的日子很短暂，可是我却已深深地爱上她.
当时是她的天真和她的纯情吸引我，她就是我梦中美丽的天使..
那时她对我来说是一个天真善良温柔的女孩，真的希望自己能够配上她....
如果她肯给我一个机会让我好好的爱她，我爱一定会爱她到海枯石烂永远不后悔；爱到来生来世也会说无悔.
我敢大胆的说她是我这一生最心爱的女孩，我不会忘记我们从开始认识的时候更不会忘记我们结束时的伤痛~
现在的我往回看，这一切似乎是命中注定？要不是她我看我也不会学会‘爱’这个字真正的意义吧?
如今我只想从她口中听到一个答案，她可否曾经爱过我？就那么简单~

我现在很爱我的现任女友，之前我从她身上找到了 QiuHua 的影子..很难受......
我总是觉得老天让我失去一个我很爱很爱很爱很爱的人，现在还我一个爱我比我爱她还来得多的女孩..
我很感激她没有放弃我，陪我度过很多煎难的日子..不顾别人的眼光和闲言闲语一定也要和我在一起.
她的一举一动打动了我，改变我对真爱的定论.. 在别人眼里她看似小孩子，不过我知道她不是.
她很细心，很有主见，很会照顾我的大大小小的事尽管我时常在她面前提起我前女友的东西..
我很感谢她对我的容忍和体贴，在她身上我感觉到她的用心，用心来配合我大男人主义和乱七八糟的生活.
当她对她朋友说她事到如今无法i放下我的时候，我很想紧紧地抱着她.....
但是我没有，因为我不想吓到她..因为我会留眼泪. 我第一次听见一个人这么的爱我，接受我的一切..
那一秒我就知道她是我认定的女人，这一辈子都不会改变的事实..除非她选择放弃这段感情~
现在我不会再从她身上看到 QiuHua 的影子了，我看到一颗真心和一份真正单纯的爱.

你可以不把我当朋友，我也不会勉强你..
你也不小了，路该怎么走那就要看你了，是好是坏都是你选的，不要后悔！
自己多照顾自己一点，若你要找我可以随时发一个简讯给我.
但是！！！！！！！！我不能保证会马上回复哦！哈哈哈！因为我可能在睡觉 =D lols!
你也一定要开心，记得下次有男朋友时要介绍阿！不要每次骗我 hor!

[09/08/10 replied]

2010-08-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st Year Anniversary!

2010-06-20T06:55:00.020+08:00

ehhh! hellos peepos!
yschelle here (: , amos's baby .
helping him to update his blog ,
as for th past 1 mth plus he's buzi .
*ohwell, i din even update my own blog =X*
but he's jus simply nagging at me to update for him (:
so i promise i did . hahas ..
for now, i onli tok abt th mth of june events :]

recently , he went to hongkong with his family! :D
but sadly is during our 10th mthsary!! >.<
7th june 2010 - 14th june 2020 .
hopefully he enjoyed over there .. well, tat's bad .
we din manage to celebrate our 10mthsary .
but fortunately we manage to celebrate ..
our 300th days which falls on 3rd june 2010 .
luckily he manage to contact me through facebook in the mid of his journey .
he brought me some presents which is unique ! (独一无二) tat's nice!
i gona promise i will keep tat forever in my life .
show eu some pics'

alright, move on ~
he came back w a severe cough .
no sound siol . c0ol sei , first time i hear it .
ouch! baby gona be damn sick .
on th day when he's back .. 14th june 2010
we went to meet up wit evelyn and daining.
my two joker sistars @ vivo city .
during the journey , i nearly gone crazy!
guess know wad he did?
"throat pain, cannot go kbox/party world
hand pain, cannot play bowling
leg pain, cannot go sentosa"
waliaos ehh! guess wad?
the onli area he's okae is eyes!
so ended up th 4 of us went to catch a movie .
movie named th A team?
ohya! he kena shoot by my two sistars .
simply cos' he no voice . hahas. kelianns
th pic'

the next day, 15th june 2010 .
both of us went to jacinta's b'day party at changi .
jacinta is my laogong :D, dun worrie she's jus my bff.
i called her laogong since 4yrs ago .
don't doubt my love cause i'm alway faithful to him (:
he's mine :D (baby, eu're mine!)
ohwell, jac's party venue is farrrrrrr~
playing th whole day till night there .
went to the changi beach walk walk too .
enjoying the beautiful scenery .
took pics' too .

midnight ... ,
having th 2day 1night stay.
4x loves 160610 .
shall ask baby himself post uhs .
Shriek (尖声叫喊) !

17th june 2010,
didnt have much stuff on ..
cos' we didnt meet .
he went to work ..
till 10pm+ then come back home .
wad a pro uhsss!!!

18th june 2010 - 19th june 2010,
th onli thing i can rmb ..
is our sweet sweet love actions ;D
hahas, still got lar.
on tha 18th , we oso went to bugis street.
buy our individuals stuff :D

ohwell, jump back!
3rd june 2010
our 300th day celebration:D
wearing our black black couple tee
& went to sentosa :P
great great day! couple cycle tgt .
how sweet . hehehs .
pics' pics'

p/s: i love to let pics' speak bt not letting all pics shown :D

2010-05-17T22:26:00.005+08:00

此时此刻的我已经不知该说什么，该做什么好~
mayb its jus so fated tat i hav to fail in everythin related to '情' ba..
haiz.. family, maks me mor n mor frustrated, pushin me to my end.
r/s, i raise my voice at baby, released al my frustrations in tis r/s.

i'm sry, i reali dun wish to tok bout ur ex anymor..
i dunnoe to hate him or to hate myself~
even askin for a number can mak me feel tat u're defendin him?
afraid i would do somethin to him? fine, i dun wanna ask anymor.
dun say i think too much, i always manage to gt his number by askin.
tis time round no mor, u asked me everythin so detailed lyk as if i would harm him?
i'm speechless, i surrender.
seeing tat chipmunk i jus so hate it, no reason?
原来我可以那么容易的被取代，原本属于两个人的东西如今都变了，是大家共同拥有的,
its no longer somethin between u n me, therfore i hav no reason to hold on to it anymor.
i dun lyk hearin u cal me laogong, i've gt my own reasons.
ya u gt frustrated when i asked ppl to join in our meetins,
wat maks u think i wnt feel so? even Anniversary u wanna gt ur friends to join in?
fine, tis anniversary is no longer between us ok? lets open it to the public might as wel.. i reali dun understand wats goin on in ur mind.
i dun wish to continue tis post anymor, havin fever n den stil haven bath.
goin to slp, someone's waitin for me on the bed >.< bye ppl~

2010-05-17T21:57:00.006+08:00

stop askin me wats wrong can?!
if u wanna noe mor go n ask her urself, wats the point of askin me?!
i do nt wanna tok bout it understand?! :@ !

reply to baby:
actuali is both nt onli u? its veri hard for me to trust someone i noe wif someone i dun.. hw long were we onli bck then? nt even 3wks? wat if it happen to me?
i believed any guys wnt be able to tk it when his own r/s isn't STABLE at all.
i already said le, u din fail as a gf, its me hu failed as a bf.
是我不够大方，不能和别人分享自己独有的东西，是我太自私了。对不起
i noe i'm too selfish.. i demand too much of u, sorry.
请原谅我不够成熟，担心得太多。。我不会再从犯以上我所说的..
i wnt be selfish anymor, i'll jus close my eyes n pretend i din see, i dunnoe.
mayb tats the bes options for us~

reply to our blog:
i'm sry, i shouldn't hav tok bck to start the quarrel,
i shounldn't hav even mention ur ex's name or mine.
if ther should be anythin u're unhappy wif, tel me directly.
dun type it in ur blog or our blog cuz words can be misleadin at times~
u dun hav to do anythin, should change de should be me.
mayb i allowed jealousy n frustrations gt over my head le ba..
i wnt gt jealous anymor, i'll stop al my childish act.
我把你当 someone i treasure alot..
i no longer noes wats love the moment i gt so many diff disappointments in life.
it al come at once, everythin has gt to do wif the word L-O-V-E..
i can describe to u wats love, bt i no longer noe tis word le.
i'm sry i told u thins tat i shoudn't, no mor nex time dun worri~
你没有错，错的是我.. dun think too much
i wnt say anythin anymor, the prob lies wif me n i made u do the decision.
i noe i'm down right mos nt worthy of askin u to do so, bt..............
i dun wanna be the one decidin ur future, hence i allowed u to decide mine.
i once told u i wnt let go of ur hands even if u let go of mine,
i wnt leave u even if u leave me..tis sentence still applies ok..
whether to stop or to continue, everythin is in ur hands [within ur control]
是我太小气，太幼稚，太无理取闹了。。我又错了~ 失败者 Zhi An.

2010-05-08T23:56:00.011+08:00

oh wel its has been a long time since i las had the chance to post.
been real busy ever since i started wrkin..
i was at Suntec on the 6-7 May for a HR Summit event. super tiring man.
i got to reach Suntec by 8am for both days, shag sia..
bt nvm la at least i enjoyed throughout ^^ i gt to noe ppl frm various places!
hahas was quite surprise to realised tat they rmb me even i cant rmb them! cool~
after tat we went to The Helix n had a lk..
when we're on our way bck frm The Helix 1 of the girl frm Casino Royale called me,
we had a short eye contact b4 she cal me,as i said, i can hardly rmb any1 i noe >.<
n after a eye contact, she suddenly cal me when i walk pas her!
guess hw did i react? hahas my 1st reactions was 'aww tis girl lks nice,bt idk her'
den i gav tat blur lk n she said 'Suntec' n i replied 'o.O' hahas
i onli rmb her after i board the train -.-'
aiya dun wish to even tok bout our anni ytd, such a bad day..
quarrelled bout alot of thins, damm low + bad mood. Super easy to gt me irrtated.
oh wel i held bck my anger ytd, or else i might even say brk!?!
i held alot of thins in my heart, didn't mention nt becuz i dun wan u to noe,
is becuz its reali hard for me to say out, i'm nt lyk u..
mayb its easy for u to do so, bt tis dun wrk for me. sry girl~ =X

ok lets tok bout today ba. me n baby wok up late today.
suppose to meet at 12, baby wok up onli at 12? lols hahas she's tired!
we onli meet at 1plus, den cabbed to Joanne's hus to tk the purple card for Sentosa.
took the same cabbed bck to cwp n den we went to order Mother's flower.
done wif baby's mummy n ah ma's present le den we left cwp to vivo.
gt our Islander Card today, yeah! ^^ after tat nth to do n so we walked ard..
wanted to go party world, bt al full so i suggested movie.
when we reach the theater, realised no show for us to watch -.-
den i said i wan to walk ard n lk for potential laptops.
we went Challenger & Canon shop to tk a lk, i savin for my Canon 550!
my god tats totally my dream come true man. laptop wise stil lkin ard...
we went for the Songs Of The Sea at Sentosa, quite a interestin show though.
enjoyed today mor den ytd seriously.. >.<
aiya lazy to type le la, plus i goin slp le.. tmr meetin baby's fam for dinner.
let the pics do the tok~ =P

2010-05-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

Happy 9th Monthsary Baby!

baby, frankly speakin, i'm happy whenever i'm wif u.
dunnoe y tis is the feeling i got frm u..
although/mayb nth special happened between us,
bt jus by lkin at u, i rmb-ed the reason to live on & smile.
our love wil grow n grow til 1day mayb it overflows~
may fate brin us closer n closer, further n further lyk we nv did b4..
jus lyk wat happen-ed on 8 March & 11-12 April

2010-05-01T23:58:00.006+08:00

Labour Day today, nth big deal yea?
jus another PH onli, i rather stay in office den go bck home.
i'm much mor happier in office den at home, my family member sux big time!
i hate bein at home so much, i'm installin a punchin bag in my rm soon..
tats the onli thin n time i can vent al my frustrations & anger on,
i'm tried of everythin, everywher i go thuins jus dun go rite..
when, when onli can i relax? even my own r/s is tense up.
even baby thinks tat i dun ned her by my side, fine la tis is hw she actuali feels?
oh wel mayb she stil dunnoe me well enough, no i should say i failed.
failed to let her noe tat i ned her by my side everynw & den,
i failed to show her hw much she's loved n thought by me..
overall i failed as a bf, a ideal bf of hers rite at the beginning......

到后来才发现爱你是一种习惯，

我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角在你的背后自己煎熬。

如果你不想要继续这段感情线，想退出要趁早；我没有非要一起到老。。

若有情太难了解，想别恋要趁早；就算迷恋你的拥抱，忘了就好。

爱已至此怎样的说法都能成为理由，我在这样的爱情里看见的只是我们之间的软弱。

我开始有点明白我们的爱已经要散了。

你像过去那像走来紧紧用双手将我环绕，我拿什么和你计较，我想留的你会想要留吗？

爱上你是不是天生的宿命？深夜里，梦里总都是你倩影。

摊开你的掌心让我看看你玄之又玄的秘密，让我知道/认识你所有的秘密。。

摊开你的掌心握紧我的爱情，不要如此用力因为这样会握痛握碎我的心；也割破你的掌你的心。

很想看我们从前的照片，多想和你再接近一点。

是我变了吗？我已经跟不上你的步伐，我已经不明白你的想法，不再看见你眼中的牵挂 =(

你的一个笑容，一句话语都让我心跳很快很快。

很久以后当一切被时间冲淡，我只会更爱你

我真的爱你很深很深。

2010-04-26T23:14:00.003+08:00

these few days many thins happened.
be it friendships/relationships or watever,everythin was so downright wrong!
wat exactly i do to deserve al these kinds of diff treatments..?
do i owe everyone in my pas life?! y mus everythin word & sentence be against me?!
i dunnoe wat to do anymor,can someone kindly lead me?
baby, i love u bt i dunnoe hw to express out.
i gt thousands of words wanna tel u bt i dunnoe wher to start & end.
i'm frustrated at u yt i dunnoe hw to show my anger bt to swallow it down.
i'm helpless, angry, frustrated, tired, sad & heart broken..
ur love for me might be as much as u said, everythin u say de count.
u can express urself wel, i cant. =X
tats all for today, nt in a mood recently.
bye & nites~

2010-04-25T23:58:00.004+08:00

dunnoe wats wrong wif me recently,veri easy frustrated.
abit nia jiu angry le,den giv attitudes~ =X
havin real headaches recently,super tired..
dun wish to bother bout alot of thins,i even gav baby attitudes..
i'm tryin my bes to change bck to the old me,bt everythin u do is against me. =X
wat can i do to mak u happy,to satisfy u once again?
haiz.. i reali tried nt to show u my unhappy face le,
bt no matter hw unhappy i'm, i cant do anythin! damm ah!
w8 i free/ gt time i'll gt a punchin bag home n punch it as n when i lyk! =@
veri vex ah recently,everythin goin the wrong way..
r/s oso goin out of line,i reali dunnoe wat to do anymor..
everyone wans fair-ness,wat bout me? dun i deserve some?
everybody wans somebody to be understandin towards their situation & probs,
wat maks u ppl out ther think tat i dun ned 1? =X
watever la,everyday jus wrk wrk n wrk.. no time to think too much anyw.
i'll jus hav to swallow al my unhappiness down my stomach,
its nt tat i dun wanna tel u baby,its jus tat everytime i open my mouth,
we'll quarrel.. thus i chose nt to open my mouth & avoid everythin.
i hate quarreling wif u, i noe u're tired bt so m i?
haiz.. nvm forget it.. no one understands hw tired i'm physically/mentally.
mayb everythin happen becuz of my foul mood..
IF ONLI i can be mor understandin n calm,i wnt quarrel wif my friends & gf.

fml~ my life sux big time nowadays..
downright unfair & unhappy =(
baby n onli u noe hw tired i'm~

2010-04-19T23:20:00.003+08:00

你知道吗，爱你并不容易还需要很多勇气
是天意吧，好多话说不出去就是怕你负担不起
你相信吗？这一生让我遇见你是上辈子我欠你的
是天意吧？让我爱上你才又让你离我而去~
也许轮回里早已注定今生就该我还给你。
一颗心在风雨里飘来飘去都是为你
一路上有你就算苦一点我也愿意，
一路上有你痛一点我也愿意，
就算这辈子注定要和你分离，只要能在梦里拥抱你我就已经心满意足了。

当我拥抱你时，抱住你的人却抱不住你的苦。
谁会相信我比你更加无助？
结束不是我要的结果

i'm seriously tired le,dunnoe wat to do /say.
thins goin haywire..i'm havin a fever + slight flu..
=X ok shuttin down soon,baby naggin..

2010-04-18T01:20:00.000+08:00

finali,ty baby for updatin my blog or i believe its gonna be dead!

2010-04-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

ya rite,watever i do is my fault! tkin a MC becuz i'm sick is my fault!
EVEN RECEIVING B"DAY PRESENTS IS MY FAULT! DAMM!
i seriously dunnoe wats rite anymor,ya my fault ok my fault..
fine la watever la,jus dun push me til my end.
jus mak me feel tat even breathing is MY BLOODY FAULT
or else i oso dunnoe wat'll happen.
dun force me! gt lost frm my life i guess i'll be better uhh bitch!
argh! i swear i wnt tk MC ever again even if i'm shootin a high fever happy?!
mayb 1day when i collapse n pas on,i can hav my MCs al at once..
nt a bad idea uhh? res a lifetime,hw gd can it be..
n mayb its til den i can finali res w/o bein blamed at..
dun wish to continue too much,
as u guys can see i'm busy wif wrk til i din update blog.
sry ppl its nt tat i dun wan,its jus tat i've gt no time. =X

mos importantly,thank you; baby for always bein ther..
i noe tis mth alone i've lost temper at u for countless of time le..
i noe both of us ar busy,i already tried to spend as much time as i could wif u le..
pls do understand me n my situation,i noe its hard on u~
bt as much as i can endure n understand ur situation,pls understand mine too..
i reali dun wan to quarrel each time we start a conver.
its tiring for both of us be it mentally or physically..
i hate it ok,i admit i seriously hate it!!
when u told me it has been a long time since i las called u 'baby'.
do u noe tat hw bad i feel? mayb a busy person dun suit u..
bt tats wat i'm;a busy person..
i rejected almos everyone n everythin becuz u dun lyk it..
stil i can satisfiy ur requirements~ sometimes i jus wonder....
wonder wat can i do to satisfy everybody ard me,
no matter hw understandin i tried to be,as a friend,boyfriend,siblings,child.
y cant i gt bck the same thin,y mus it always be me the understandin one?!
i'm tired,fallin apart soon,my smile disappearin veri veri veri soon.
mayb tis is fate/my life.. i was born to face al these probs n tk it by my shoulder.
i had always wanted to find someone whom i can share half of my probs wif,
indeed i've found tis someone,bt sadly she has her own thins to vex bout,
n so i carried it by myself stil~ i wnt wanna ad on to her probs..
surely i've glad tat she share her probs wif me,
bt no matter hw happy i can be outside,
the moment i reach home jus some bitch always turn thins ard!
sry for everythin n thanks for the effort u made for my b'day.
hope al these thins wil end soon~ =X
shall stop here,too tired to continue,tmr stil gt wrk. nites ppl~
i'll be bck to upload pics taken on my b'day again. haiz....

2010-04-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

oh wel tis yr b'day wasn't a gd one.. jus as i expected it to be~
nth to say oso,shall name down those ppl tat reali took the effort to sms me.

Name List 2010:
1. Baby
2. Mummy (biological mother)
3. Fion Soh
4. Ye (SBR colleague)
5. Foo En Xin
6. Soh Yi Si
7. Shane
8. Jasmine Tan
9. Ngiam Jun Jie
10. Liew Pei Lin
11. Emmeline Tan
12. Shane Koh
13. Lim Wei Jian
14. Joey Shen
15. Catherine Oh
16. Teh Ling Shuang
17. Cassandra Loh
18. Tiong Xuan Ting
19. Poh Pei Shan
20. Elyn Jie
21. Tiffany Phua
22. Ashwini Balachandra
23. Ah Yi 表姐
24. Ah Yan 表姐
25. Koh Mei Jun
26. God Mother
27. God Father (share the same b'day as me)
28. Cheong Bao Ling
29. Evelyn Chua
30. Ong Dai Ning
31. Larry Lim (SBR colleague)
32. Valerie Sng
33. Miss Karen Teo
34. Anna Tay
35. Joanne Lie (SBR colleague)
36. Lim Kuan Seng (blood brother)
37. Carol Ong
38. Lim Hwee Teng
39. E2
40. E5

these ar the onli pathetic ppl tat took the effort to waste 1min to text me,
wat bout the res? nvm at least i noe hu cares..

las bt nt least, Happy 17th B'day to myself.
wishes to : Jia Hong & God Father [Happy B'day too!]

2010-04-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

hey readers! yschelle here :)

well, helping my baby to blog as i promised him .
hahas 10more mins to his 17th bday ,
baby , todae's is ur last 16th yr old day ehh .
hahahs growing older ooooo .
recently, last saturday ..
we invited new friends to join along ,
and then we went for church service normally .
followed by going to northvale condo for a BBQ party .
i shall let pic tok :D

2010-04-07T00:35:00.005+08:00

hurray ! oh yeah today marks another lvl of our r/s ! 070809 ; 12:35AM

it has been 8 long,
tired,
painful,
exciting,
wonderful,
intimate n fruitful mths of journey since we first started uhh baby girl ^^
dun worri,we're stil counting on alrites~! =D
we'll las super long & grow old together =)
i'll stil hold ur wrinkled hands,kis ur wrinkled cheeks,
comb through ur white hands n many many mor~ :$
our love's gonna stay on strong n gt stronger den b4 after every 7th of the mth!

i chose to believe in u n i'll nt brk tat promise to u,
i'll live my everyday happily w/o regrets,
i'll do my job n fufill my role as a gd bf of urs,
[hopin to meet ur expectation at the end of the yr]
mos importantly, i love my gf mor den i love myself !
as days pas by, i learned many thins bout u , baby.
the mor i try to learn the mor knowledge i gain.
baby, no matter wat happens, i'll always believe in u n support u through
[even though 最终陪你的人不是我]
i believe fate brought us together n u came into my life for a purpose~
bt i believe tat one day i would kneel down n ask u to marry me..
i hav absolute faith + trust in u,i noe u wt betray my trust n let me down de,
m i rite to say tat my precious gf ?

jus wanna let u noe tat u're the bes gf i ever had so far,
i seriously hope tis wil stay on til eternity~
though ther're times when we quarrel,
times when both of us ar in bad mood n u had to cheer me up,
times when we spend our intimate time under the blankets~ :$
n times when i was down n u held me hand n walk me through everythin,
promising my tat i'll nv be alone even the world falls down on me..
if u wanna go n put braces den go ahead,i wnt stop u frm doin thins u wan..
bt PLEASE dun cut short ur hair cans? i jus cant imagine u wif short hair =X

las bt nt least.................................................................................................. ......................................................................................................................

Happy 8th Monthsary Baby x3 ~!

2010-03-31T12:26:00.004+08:00

i've noticed tat being wif u i smiled mor often,

angry a little less quickly..

the sun shines a little brighter

n life is so much sweeter ; for bein wif u tks me to a diff place,

a place called ; paradise =)

tis is specially for baby~

2010-03-27T23:50:00.009+08:00

tis few days gone through the same old routine. . . . .

wak up , wash up , go out fetch baby frm sch , den after tat go home , go home =)

see! told u le,same old routine,tats my timetable frm mon-fri ^^

today is sat! diff n so we went church ^^ meet baby at cck mrt station.

we reached church jus on time for service,actuali is late le la >.<

cuz service started already,it was the 2nd praise song?

we sat through the service,pastor tok bout 6 things~

Expectation is the atmosphere for miracles!

n so we got to W-A-I-T !

Withstand

Anticipate

Intercede

Trust

after tat we went queenstown to mak baby's class tee thingy,

enjoy-ed ourselves throughout as we were cre8tin jokes ourselves! so retarded

at nite b4 i slp baby sent me a chinese n sweet msg,

1st time see her sent tis to me sey..

baby sent '晚安帅帅老公 :$ :-*' hahas cute rite her? 1st time see her send me tis..

our love is unbreakable
it definately unmistakable..
n each time i lk in ur eyes i knew y,

y tis love we shared is untouchable
its a feelin my heart jus cant deny...

[overall,our love is jus undescribable]

2010-03-20T23:30:00.005+08:00

oh wel i forgot wat i did on the 18-19th once again..
too busy recently le. no time to update or even touch com~
today i wok up quite earli cuz Miss Teo called me n chat wif me bout her weddin thins
she asked me to be her best man on her weddin! wat a honour man!
she said i was her closest friend in S'pore as she's a malaysian,
thus i'm the bes n onli choice~ oh wel i rejected her offer as i had to wrk >.<
BT I PROMISE HER TO BE THER FOR HER WEDDIN DINNER AT HYATT HOTEL! =D
oh wel after ard 1hr chat i texted baby n set time to meet her.
we den spend our entire day at home doin alot of thins =P
i went home at 11plus n tats al for the day nth special recently,
almos everyday is the same routine so . . ya =)

2010-03-18T23:55:00.005+08:00

oh wel 17th i cant rmb wat we did le..
bt today i noe baby went to wrk..
sent baby to wrk at Joo Koon den w8 for some slowpoks to fetch baby,
fetch her liao stil mus w8 for some others b4 they can leave.
after baby left,i went bck home n res al the way til 8plus den leave wlds to fetch baby
oh wel quite glad to see baby n elephant [Edlyn] bck to normal
cuz they were havin cold wars earlier on~
on the way to IMM frm Boon Lay Edlyn n baby was tellin me bout their experience today.
Edlyn said alot of those army guys interested in baby,
used empty can drinks mak a love shape for baby,asked for her no. etc de~
aww its makin me jealous man.. >.<
we went to IMM mac for our dinner,had quite alot of fun ther as we saw some unglams!
after everythin we took train bck home n tats the end of the day! =P

2010-03-16T23:40:00.007+08:00

oh wel baby's super sick recently,i went over 2 her hus as soon as i wok up today!
heart pain sia see her so sick,plus the bad news she got.. =X
haiz.. oso dunnoe wat to do to help her. . the res wil see when i free to update.
recently busy acc-ing baby b4 my wrk starts in april n i'll hav no time for her~
hmm.. gonna prepare for my wrk recently,took baby's time..
asked her acc me go buy thins i ned for wrk , my attire etc de =P
ty alot uhh baby , for acc-ing me despite ur busy schedule >.<

2010-03-15T00:00:00.006+08:00

云在走，雨在飘还有好多悲伤在风中笑
心在烧，泪在掉，昨夜的那一场电影还有我的心情。
很想给你写封信可是却只是想想而已
我已经不能肯定你是否还会关心...
爱与不爱都需要勇气，于是我们都选择了逃避
或许你不相信，我对这样的结局并非很满意
或许你不相信我会有一丝的埋怨和悔意，
虽然你不是我的最初，我希望你是我的最终；根希望你是我这一生的唯一。。。
说爱我好不好？就当作是我对你的一个乞讨，哪怕说出口只需要一秒。
如果连自尊都已经不再需要，这个世界什么爱你买不到？
天真全部可以倒掉，海誓山盟变成一种玩笑
如果连誓言都已经不再重要，那还有什么事值得你去骄傲？
所有承诺随风燃烧，给你的爱已经停止了心跳
你可知道我给你的爱是一条无法回头的路？
想必只有我和我的眼泪知道吧。。

请不要分了以后说你还记得亲吻过的承诺，
你的永久已不再属於我，默默低头的我那时很多话哽在喉咙说不出口
你的笑，你的快乐或许我爱太多，想太多了吧
我能感受他比我更适合，
爱放了手，我伪装冷漠比你先说分手。。
请原谅我，原谅我不够成熟
不爱你是借口好让你在离开我时，离得安心一点
请原谅我自私，想将你全全占有。
你的寂寞就给我承受，换你过更好的生活了 =)
爱过，恨过，哭过，笑过也亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱，只是我不能在你面前显得懦弱，让你看到我多么憔悴
原谅我必须假装爱错/没爱过，原谅我没有解释太多，
心疼但我别无所求，请你彻彻底底的忘了我吧
爱原来有舍得，我爱过所以我懂。。。。

爱虽然只有简单的笔画，但它却比想象的还来得复杂
我爱过几个人，也被爱过几遍但我却还是没能将幸福留下
当一切回到了原点，我还是宁愿回到爱情的那个枷锁。
如今的我已经不再相信付出一定会得到回报，
不再相信真爱的存在，被击倒的信心很难回到原来的样子。
你是不是还会关心我。。？我的存在是否还存有那一点点的价值？
你会让我失望然后伤心的离去吗？你们会旧情复燃吗？
正所谓世事难料，人无法料到踏出去的下一步会怎样，只求一切顺利。
我选择了你也只求长久，不需要什么所谓的承诺，只求一份真挚的爱情。。

well u can ask hw tis post came about,

its al diff lyrics mixin 2gether n some of my personal feelins + words..

everythin i typed here can already tel a simple love story of 2person~

hahas lols i'm nt a story writer,neither do i aspire 2 be 1 ^^

i'm alrite so dun worri much uhh ppl tat ar readin 2 tis post!

2010-03-14T23:30:00.006+08:00

baby 2day is the 1st day u spent at malaysia n my 1st day w/o u.. >.<
i gt alot of thins wanna tel u,i wanna hug u lyk i used 2. .
i watched on9 service jus nw instead of goin 2 church cuz i'm tired.
whole day at home slack,nth 2 do.. ate my lunch n dinner so dun worri uhh ^^
we might hav small quarrels & disputes oftenly,
bt i've nv once blamed u or said its ur fault..
i'm ur bf,even if the nite sky fals down on u,i'll be the 1st 2 block it 4 u,
when u're drenched under the rain,i'll be ur umbrella n shelter u frm the rain,
when u ned some1 2 hear ur troubles out,i'll be tat some1 2 hear it out,
i'll be wif u til the las min n i knew our love grew deeper n mor wif each passin day..
no matter hw far u go in life,hw many times u fal n hurt urself along the road 2 success,i'll always be ther 2 offer u my outstretched arms! =P
jus wanna tel u these thins tats kept inside my heart 4 veri long,
thins tat i dunnoe hw 2 say out by mouth..
no matter hw many conflicts we've 2 go through,
no matter hw many times u'll lose ur temper at me,
i'll carry on lovin u no matter wat cuz u're my everythin~
al i ever neded in tis entire life..
i ty those tat passed by my life n made me grow,
its becuz of them tat i came 2 noe u as a better n stronger man. ^^

2010-03-13T23:59:00.001+08:00

Happy Sweet 16th B'day Ashwini!

oh wel i wok up at 9plus in the mornin 2 gt rdy 4 ltr's party.
i 1st went 2 wlds check point 2 alter my pants as it was 2 baggy..i dun lyk it.
after tat went home n change 2 off i went 2 cwp 2 w8 4 baby.
i was suppose 2 meet QiuHua 2 pas her the ang bao 2 Miss Sharifah de.
as 2day was her weddin day!!! hw cool is tat uhh,地下情首次公开，一公开就是结婚！-.-

i wish u a Happy & Blissful Marriage Miss Sharifah!

hope u can quickly giv birth 2 a baby uhh! hahas =)

baby damm blur de 2day,4gt brin her hp out causin her 2 be late.
bt nvm i spend my time at jie's shop as i refuse 2 meet QH alone w/o baby.
i ran off when baby reach,jie jie sianz half.. hahas ps la.
we den walk 2 mos burger 2 meet QH 2gether..passed her the ang bao n i left.
after tat we went vivo 2 shop n view the SPCA exhibition..
we renewd our membership at the same time n it cost us $20.00.... >.<

we den shopped at vivo til 5plus n we left 4 the party..

we got lost bt managed 2 reach ther eventually.

when i 1st saw the venus,i thought it was a weddin n i was bout 2 walk away frm ther,

baby suddenly stop me n said she saw Ashwini's name on the banner~ -.-

ok it was a party,nt a weddin..i thought it was a weddin at 1st sight..

we settled down soon after,Ashwini was chaffeured in by a black honda car,cool~!

when she step out,i was lyk 'wow is tis a weddin or b'day party??' >.<

cuz she wore lyk she's gettin married 2day! hahas let the pics do the tok ba,

i'm lazy..as can see i skipped alot of parts already~

[man we gt the siblings lk >.<]

[tis is the b'day girl Ashwini! she lk lyk wearin a weddin gown rite?!]

i sent baby home after tat as she has 2 go off 2 malaysia,while i go home..
tired. . . =X gonna w8 til baby reaches malaysia safely b4 i slp.
Fb-ing afterwards,bye ppl!

2010-03-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

*basically i 4gt wat i did on 11th n so i din update*

2day i wok up quite late,at 11.39am.. had a quick wash up n left hus in a hurry.
cuz baby bet wif me,she says i wnt reach her sch on time [12.35pm].
i left hus at 11.50am,managed 2 catch 963 on time,phew! =)
baby texted me at 12pm askin wher m i,i told her i already at highway le.
she totally freak out,hahas! she nv thought i could so fas! hahahahahas!! =D
i reach her sch at 12.20pm? waited 4 awhile n saw the ice cream man.
i went over n gt myself 1 ice cream as i'm thirsty n hungry >.<
baby came out on time n i finished the ice cream on time! hahas ps i din mean it!
we den left,walked 2 bus stop n tk a bus 2 bpp..baby dun wan go home.
we den had our lunch at foodcourt,den slack ther til 5plus.
its baby's MPS [Meet the Parent Session] 2day n i was told 2 be ther as wel..
wel when i 1st gt in the sch i gt much attentions as i knew mos of them ther,
baby gt teased n i stood ther laughin at her cuz she veri malu/ps =D
after tat 1 of her discipline t'cher came,asked hu m i..she replied brother.
heng ah,or else she'll kana nagged by the t'chers daily~
ty god we gt the same surname n ty god tat we lk alyk! hahas! =P
after tat we went baby went play basketball while i watchin,
awhile ltr her mother came n we went in the hall n listen 2 a short tok.
oh wel i'm baby's brother + father n father of Ong Dai Ning n Evelyn Chua!
wth sia al ask me be their father n tk their report bks -.-
jus jkin nia la,after tat i w8 4 baby n her mother 2 finish everythin go home 2gether
on our way 2 the bus stop,baby walk wif her friend 2 avoid her mother's naggin?
tats wat i guess nia la,whether its true or nt mus ask le..
her mother den tok 2 me,tel me alot of thins = i kana on baby's behalf! -.-
we're near the bus stop when baby's mother asked me a veri funny ques as i complained
i said 'ltr 1st thin 1 do when we reach home is 2 mak ah bee bath,
ask her bath veri hard de sia,mus cal 1hr den wil go bath,even i drag her down frm bed oso of no use,carry her out oso no use..nth seems 2 wrk'
den baby's mother say 'uhnorh! u noe 就好 lor. tats y i gt a ques wanna ask u'
i asked her 'wat ques?' n guess wat she asked?
she asked me '你看上她什么？这么懒惰！' n i laughed n said '这种事很难讲的'
den baby turned bck n walk wif us,i told her everythin n she laughed! wth!
we're lyk tokin bout her? stil she's so happy ah -.-
we took bus 67 bck home,force baby bath n she did w/o much delays ^^ [suprised]
after bathin we ate dinner at home as baby's ah ma cooked bee hoon.
after eatin,baby went in 2 slp as she's tired n sick..
i washed the plates up n watch tv after tat...soon i realised its gettin late.
plus i'm physically tired le,so i decided 2 go home,i left at 11.10pm.
i went in n gav baby a gdnite/gdbye kis n i went home =)
reached home,wash up n slept.. super super tired de >.<
tats al 4 2day,nites ppl~

2010-03-10T23:50:00.001+08:00

oh wel i wok up ltr den ytd,went out ltr den ytd..left wlds at 8.45am.
i hav 2 reach Harbout Front taxi stand by 10.30am 2 catch a shutter bus provided..
n so i gt ther on time! phew,or else i'll hav 2 enter myself man..
ther were 5 interviewer,3guys n 2girls.. among the 20 of us ther were ppl frm 17-50+
n obviously the 17 which is the youngest,was me! the res is aunties n uncles..
the speed was fas,i was ard the 10th 2 be interviewd. i was interviewd by a girl.
her name was Felicia,she was quite friendly.. her smiles were mesmerisin man!
oh wel i was oso the suay 1 2 kana interview when the big rain strucks!
its downright noisy n i can hardly hear her ques,ty god she heard my replies!
our interview was within 5mins?! horrible fas man!
she den ask me 2 sit n w8 4 cal..her stare maks me excited n scare..
excited cuz i can see acceptance in her eyes,scare becuz i'm afraid 2 be wrong -.-
watever it is everythin ended at ard 12plus,every1 took the shutter bus 2gether.
man i gt 2 admit i'm a damm auntie killer man! al the aunties came 2 me,
al surroundin me askin bout my age,r/s status n plans 4 future etc de..
1 of them even encouraged me 2 go 4 diploma course at TMIS
[Tourism Management Institude of S'pore]
oh wel we had a reali nice n enjoyin chat on the bus b4 we departed at the station.
on my way home,i received a cal frm Siloso Beach Resort!
they called 2 tel me i was confirmed n was told 2 wrk! praise the Lord!!!
i prayed hard 4 tis job the day b4,god blessed me even b4 i started 2 gav! Amen!
i shared wif baby the news,we were both so excited man! =D
i'm startin on the 1st of April,cool..super lkin 4ward 2 it~!~!
i reached home at bout 1pus 2? quite tired le,din manage 2 res n went out again.
i'm fetchin my girl frm sch,oh wel guess wat,i was late =X
we had a small tiff as i gav her false hope on reachin earli as i thought i could.
luckily i managed 2 clear thins when we met,she always knew my plans/thoughts,damm!
we took the bus home,den stayed in her rm the whole day.
at nite she was tired n so we slept earli,i reach home b4 12am once again.
cuz i'm super tired recently,missin time again n again~
gtg n slp le,nites ppl! continue tmr ba!

2010-03-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

oh wel 2day i wok up super earli de,6.30am i'm awake~!
[2 me its earli la cuz i pig mah] >.<
slowly wash up,den drag my feet out of my hus,left home at ard 8.10am?
i'm invited 2 attend a job fair by e2i n mus be ther by 9am sharp..
its a red hill,super far frm my hus sia,took me half an hr 2 reach ther~
oh wel i reached ther jus on time 4 the seminar..got my attendance marked.
after 10mins briefing,they gav me a form 2 fill in n see,
its a paper recordin which company hiring which position n no. neded..
hmm ther's alot of choices,bt i'm interested in the Siloso Beach Resort's post.
the Event Coordinator!! n off i went 4 the interview when the tok ended..
ppl frm diff company sent their Rep 2 interview ppl at e2i.
i waited 4 nearly 30mins b4 its my turn,man wat a long w8..
my interview took less den 5mins n they asked me 2 go 4 a 2nd interview tmr.
meanin i had 2 go 2 Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort 4 my interview tmr mornin.
gt 2 wak up in the mornin again >.< shag ah!!! bt abit excited!
as my decision n employment decides baby's future? so i mus think through seriously!
after the interview i went home n res as i'm dead beat after a long mornin..
i reached home at ard 1plus,slept til 3plus wak up,
cuz i'm suppose 2 meet baby 4 dinner? i promised her so mus do it.
she asked me 2 stay at home n res,bt i insisted on meetin her thus she agreed. ^^
i drag myself out of bed,den out of the hus n den 2 her hus..
we went 2 bpp 4 dinner,after tat walked bck home n stayed in her rm.
i den left her hus at 11plus. i reached home jus b4 12am strikes!
dead beat nw,nites ppl! >.<

2010-03-08T23:50:00.016+08:00

2day we went shop 4 baby's friend Ashwini's b'day present at CWP..
we den went walkin ard cwp,walked passed jie's shop n wanted 2 scare her bt failed!she pulled down the shutters of her shop,i wanted 2 sneak in,
bt my bck hit the shutter n made a sound tat took her attention! sianz! -.-
baby sat on the floor laughin at me,she so bad rite?!?! Hmm!
after tat we walked ard 4 bout 45mins n finali gt Ashwini a present!

we den head 4 my hus n res 4 awhile as i was kinda sick + tired.
i went 2 my rm upon reachin home,baby followed in as wel..
i was told 2 read the newspaper out loud as baby lazy 2 read n so i did so..
after tat baby went 2 slp/res on my bed n i followed soon after~
baby den says she wanna a body massage as her body is aching everywher,
bt i told her i dunnoe hw 2 bt she taught me step by step n i'm learnin in progress..
it was my 1st time massagin 4 ppl n its lyk kinda awkward? :$
i'm glad i somehw mastered abit of skills on hw 2 massage 4 my wife ^^
i'm glad i somehw master abit of skills on hw 2 massage 4 my wife ^^
>.< so dun think 2 much uhh ppl out ther!!
after tat i 4gt wat i did 2 upset my baby girl n so i had 2 coax her. . .
somehw frm coaxing we started kissin,den gt mor n mor in2 it (LC)
its our 1st time doin so after so long cuz we hardly kis each other in the pas,
we do hug,bt kis is less uhh..dun ask me y cuz i cant explain the reason y~
after tat time was running out 4 us,i sent baby home.
my bro happen 2 be leavin hus at the same time n we left 2gether..
chatted al the way til cwp,we separated as my bro buyin his dinner at cwp,
while me n baby went 2 interchange n tk bus bck home.
hmm tats al 4 the day,shall see wat i hav 2 update 4 tmr ba~
tired,tmr hav 2 wak up earli in the mornin 4 a job fair as i'm invited 2 attend..
nites ppl,res earli! =D

2010-03-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

Happy 7th Monthsary Baby! ^^

oh wel,1mth pas each mth faster by every passin day..
we've been 2gether 4 bout 7th mths le,lkin bck at those old times seem so sweet n funny..
eh dun gt me wrong uhh,i'm nt tryin 2 say tat nw it isn't sweet n funny ok..!
jus tat as days passed,we gt sweeter n thins gt even funnier den b4 =D
we've overcome many obstacles in both our lifes n tis r/s.
seriously,i ty god 4 puttin those obstacles in my life,cuz they're the part of meetin u!
if i haven gone through those obstacles,we wouldn't hav met under any situation?!
til the extend tat we could even walk pas each other w/o each other noein it.
u might hav been 2 CWP many times,i slack ther in my teenage life n yt i nv ONCE notice u!
its hw funny life can be uhh,2ppl goin 2 the same place w/o catchin each other's attention~
til we gt 2gether den we noe tat we actuali went 2 the same place at the same time b4?

the pas 7th mth wasn't a veri smooth sail though~
bt our love didn't lessen throughout the 7mths,it grew stronger instead! cool uh?!
hahas ther're times we quarrelled n walk away frm each other,
times we ignored each other (within 30mins recover),
times we laughted til our eyes filled wif tears/cheek muscle numb/stomach pain,
times we gt so intimate n lovin,enjoyin ourselves lyk nobody elses' business,
times we slept wif each other side by side cuddling 2gether..
ther're stil many many mor bt i shall stop here ba =) list 2 much i guess i'll hav 2 type til nex yr!

oh wel we spend our 7th mth anni at home,baby's hus >.<
cuz i dun feel lyk goin out,tired plus abit sick?
i pas baby her belated present as i owe her since our 5th mth..
STILL! we enjoyed it ok..although we're at home,we gt alot of thins we can do in the same rm~
shall nt continue further =D continue tmr~

2010-03-05T00:50:00.014+08:00

here ar jus some pics i found n wanna use it 2 express somethins frm my heart..
thins tat i'm unable 2 say it out through my own mouth~
baby,tis is 4 u! i noe u've seen it b4 bt i'm showin it publicaly nw..!

[we did everythin tats listed here!]

[tis is so lyk us the other nite..]

the end,gt my meanin through those words le mah?

giv me a text if u do see tis when u're nt wif me,

if u're wif me tel me straight 2 my face ty

awaitin 4 ur reply soon! :$

2010-03-05T00:35:00.021+08:00

oh wel i've thought through le.. ytd's post was jus a silly side of me~
tis girl tat has been wif me 4 a period of time,i've seen through her frm inside out.
sry 4 hurtin u wif my words once again,我一定会拉你的小手一起共度白首。。
although we're onli bf/gf , mentally i'm already engaged 2 u baby girl [TK NOTE!] =D
ppl out ther,its obviously i love her alot -.- so stop askin~
we've been through so many tough times 2 be wher we're nw.
hand in hand we walked through al the obstacles putted in our love life..
nw tat everythin is over,i dun wanna be the 'petty' guy grabbin on 2 those pas,
a pas has already past..wat matters mor is the present!
as time passes,we grow older 2gether,as we continue 2 change wif age,
ther's 1 thin tat wil nv change. . .i'll always kp fallin inlove wif u.

can i be ur dream,ur wish,ur fantasy,ur hope,ur love n be everythin tat u ned..?
i'll love u mor wif every breath truly,madly n deeply..
i'll be strong,i'll be faithful cuz i'm countin on a new beginnin,
a reason 4 livin,a deeper meanin~
our love grew bit by bit wif every hugges n kisses,
it stayed strong wif every 'ilu' n faithful wif every touch..
i wanna stay lyk tis 4ever until the day u say 'i do'
a hug represent hw much i love u,i would hold u in my arms 4ever,
a kis represent hw much i wanna mak u mine 4ever,
a touch represent hw much i desire 4 u til it became a fantasy..
faith is tkin the 1st step even when i dun see the whole staircase,
cuz bein inlove wif u n trustin u,i cant see wats goin on in the future,yea baby?

if u ask me y do i love u n y mus it be u,
i would ans no y? cuz if lovin u ned a reason,den i dun hav a reason 2 love u?
if i say i love u becuz u're cute/pretty,den we'll nt las til old age.
cuz i'm veri sure u wnt lk as cute/pretty as u're on the day we stead when u're old.
explainin hw much i love u is lyk explainin hw plain water taste,
which is total impossible 2 describe wif simple words.
i'll do watever it tks jus 2 mak u safe in my arms again.
every girl is special in their own ways,n therfore u cnt compare urself wif others..
u're the onli 1 hu has touched my heart n it'll always be urs~
al i ever wanted was 2 be apart of ur heart n 4 us 2 be 2gether,2 nv be apart..
no1 else in tis world can even compare,u're perfect n so is tis love tat we share.
baby girl,we're so much mor den i ever thought we would,
i love u mor den i ever thought i could......
in ur eyes i see our pas,our present n our future,
by the way u lk at me i noe we'll las til the end of time..
i'm gonna mak a offcial propose 2 u when u reach 24 [i'm 25],on our 9th yr anni!
u asked me,are we gonna be a married couple in the future?
baby i'm gonna ans u here in my blog,yes we'll! do u believe in me n our future?
the perfect future we planned..i'll w8 4 u 2 move in wif me at 18,marry me at 24..
at the same time i'm waitin 4 our 999th day =) i might nt wan it den,
bt stil its a memorable date as it means we're already 2gether 4 1000 powerful days!
n we can sit by the beach side n tok bout our pas,believin 4 a better future~
i'll always rmb tat awkwardness i had when the day i ask u 4 stead,
i'll always rmb our 1st stare at cwp lvl 1,our 1st phone chat til 4am plus,
our 1st hug [2 Aug],our 1st kis on the lips [National Day 09 at vivo traffic light],
our 1st kis [on ur forehead on ur b'day 09,the day our love story started],
our 1st touch [23 Feb] n many other mor 1st time..
i noe i haven been a veri understandin bf recently,i'm sry baby.
i'll change n wrk 4 the better,i dun wanna fail ur test tis yr n end of the yr..
ty 4 ur faith in my al these whiles,ty 4 lovin me endlessly through everythin,
mos importantly,ty 4 stayin strong n stand up 4 our r/s.. iloveyou~

2010-03-05T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy B'day Dad~!

oh wel i noe u cant see my blog,bt stil i'll wish u here ^^

veri filial rite? blog oso involve u eh.. nt bad la huh =)

anyw i sent dad an sms n here it goes [jus FYI onli]

those of u tat ain't abit interested can jus ignore it..

生日快乐老爸！

你的年纪一年一年大了，

我也随着你的老化慢慢的成长。。

祝你年年有今日，岁岁有今朝！

绝世好爸 (BRA) =D

哈！哈！哈！

开玩笑而已啦！

so thick skin sia him,i reach home on the dot 12am,

dad came out of my rm,shake hand wif me -.-

n i wished him at the same time..

2010-03-04T00:35:00.010+08:00

oh wel 2day was jus another bad day of ours~
baby was angry cuz i cabbed over n find her..
haiz.. mayb my mother's half rite,i can nv sav up any $$ in my entire life.
half rite becuz i'm gonna change n prove her wrong! i'm gonna sav up every cents i've!
haiz.. wats wrong wif me? jus wats so wrong wif me nowadays?!
everythin dun seems rite,i even thought of leavin,leavin baby,leavin every1~
dun wish 2 be involved in tis world,brains crackin soon! argh~!
baby do u noe tat when u accidentaly slap me 2day broke my heart?
mayb i jus ain't the rite guy uhh? ther's always a some1 better den me..i believe
after so long,i stil dunnoe hw 2 treat u rite..mayb u're rite.
at least dun let me be the las reason 2 drive u crazy can..?
i wan nth frm/4 u.. cuz i nv dared 2 ask 4 anythin as i felt i owe u alot..
i noe u tried 2 change,i see ur efforts bein made..
i'm sry 4 bein the 1 2 spoil it al the time ='(
我会说我做得不对，我永远都学不会如何去爱你~
这不是个误会，我不会在你面前流泪。。
i'll kp my tears & sorrows 2 myself...........
i nv nv nv once noe wat u wan..
at start everythin was goin on well,bt as time passes by~
haiz..dun wish 2 continue~ ='X my heart is aching alot alot.. [every sec,min n hr..]
我为了为自己犯的错而喝酒，而且每次都'喝醉'.. =(
the feelin i had 1mth ago came bck 2 me [Joey related] n i hate tat feelin..
i no longer noes if i'm stil able 2 hug u tight..
i no longer noes wher i'm headin 2 in the future,mayb tis is my life..
shall stop here 4 2nite,nt in a mood 2 continue~nites.....

2010-03-03T00:35:00.013+08:00

tis is a special post 2 my dearest girlfriend ; Yschelle Lim Y.S
super belated congrats 2 u on bein the bes team 4 girls campcraft competition held on
27.02.10! Grats baby girl! i knew u could do it n u did it!

any1 can support a team tats winning,it tks u no courage at all..

bt 2 stand behind a team 2 defend a team when its down n reali neds u,

it tks u alots of courages~

baby i appreciate u 4 every single thin u're done in my life.
it might seem small 2 u or 2 others tat noes nth bout u n me [us],
bt its the greatest i could ever receive in tis lifetime le
a word of ty is nt enough 2 tel u hw much i appreciate u...
i could onli promise 2 love u wif al my heart 2 repay u in tis life,
as i owe u way 2 much le,u're mor den expected n requested..
mor den wat i could ever ask 4 in tis lifetime~! sweetest n bes gf so far!
i ty god 4 ur appearance in my life..

2010-03-02T00:30:00.001+08:00

oh wel 2day was a lousy day 4 me~
wok up earli in the mornin by my father askin me 2 help him gua sa~ -.-
den went bck slp,awhile ltr wok up again.. ard 12plus pm..
used the com 2 check mails etc de. after tat sms wif baby
went out at 2pm 2 fetch baby frm sch.. [i went willingly nt forced ok]
after tat had some chat wif her along the road 2 bus stop,
she nv fail 2 update me bout her daily sch life n i nv fail 2 listen,rite baby?
oh wel ur eng gt 2 jiayou le wor! nw B4,my expectation is at least a B3 eh baby..
u can de la,no worries~ cuz ur bf LZA's eng veri gd,i shall speak 2 u in eng mor! =P
reached home at 3plus,after tat baby went n cook 4 me cuz i hungry >.<
after tat i disturbed baby,teased her n di siao her..scare her somemor!
hahas in summary: baby hate me 2day! cuz i so bad! wahahas
al i say de,she din even say anythin,gt she gt say somethin sweeeeeeeeet!
[she texted me after i left : 'Baby . . You are forever my good bf!'] gd rite? :$
after tat i tickled baby den she blocked,accidentaly hit me..
den i told her : 'orh ok lor fine,bf touch u cnt hor? den i dun touch u liao'
after tat she stared at me,den ignored me.. i went over n cheer her up =)
cuz i noe my words hurted her narh,tats y she cals me 鸡蛋炒鸭蛋 -.-
sry baby i din mean it de la =X i wnt 4ever wnt touch u de la dun worri~ =D
hmm..at mos i everyday touch u!!! =P hahas jus kiddin nia la [pervertic -.-]
after tat she emo,went bck door.. i ask her wat happen,she said i was fierce!
was i?!?! i wasn't ok.. i was jus serious~ she cried,aww see le heart pain pain..
dun cry narh,i din mean 2 be fierce 2 u de.. sry baby~
after tat she was better n we went out 2 watch tv.. ^^
i played wif lucky [dog] 4 awhile,fun sia i whack lucky's butt! hahas dumb sia him!
after tat watch a show,the show super suits us de so ask baby watch n learn~
baby 'chase' me go home cuz i had 2 be home by 12am,she dun wan me kana scolded..
she did it nt becuz she wanted me 2 do so,is becuz she dun wanna mak my life hard.
ty so much 4 sparin a thought 4 me baby~ love u so much! :-*
i left her hus late,den cabbed home jiejie pay 4 it ^^
reached home safe n sound = peace! nv kana sia.. heng ah
tmr's another day,cant go 4 a coffee session wif bro le. if he's free la~
tats al 4 2day,bye peeps!

不要说我做得不对，不要说你永远不会

因为我在无意间听见有人叫你宝贝

不要说这是个误会，请不要在我面前流泪

因为我明明听见有人叫你宝贝，你让他叫你宝贝。。。

had a sudden addiction 2 tis song,dunnoe y oso >.<

2010-03-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

ppl come in2 ur life 4 a reason,a season or a lifetime.
when u noe which 1 it is,u'll noe wat 2 do 4 tat person.
when some1's in ur life 4 a REASON,its usually 2 meet a ned u've expressed.
they've come 2 assist u through a difficulty,2 provide u wif guidance n support,
2 aid u physically,emotionally or spiritually.
they may seem lyk a godsend n they're.
they're ther 4 the reason u ned them 2 be.
den,w/o any wrongdoin on ur part or at an inconvenient time,
tis person wil say or do somethin 2 brin the r/s 2 an end.
sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
sometimes they act up n force u 2 tk a stand.
wat we mus realize is tat our ned has been met,our desire fulfilled;
their wrk is done.
the prayer u sent up has been answered n nw its time 2 move on.
some ppl come in2 ur life 4 a SEASON,becuz ur turn has come 2 share,grow or learn.
they brin u an experience of peace or mak u laugh.
they may teach u somethin u've nv done.
they usually giv u an unbelievable amount of joy.
believe it,its real. Bt onli 4 a season.
LIFETIME r/s teach u lifetime lessons,
thins u mus build upon in order 2 hav a solid emotional foundation.
ur job is 2 accept the lesson,
love the person n put wat u've learned 2 use in al other r/s n areas of ur life.
its said tat love's blind bt friendship is clairvoyant.
thank u 4 bein a part of my life,whether u were a reason,a season or a lifetime.

somehw i noe deep in my heart,u were a lifetime

2010-02-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

wel wel 2day was my chinese b'day accordin 2 baby?
she gt my a b'day cake! wow ty la baby!
1st time in my life i celebrated my chinese b'day~
wel dun wanna say much,let the pics do the tok den..

2010-02-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

these ar the pics 4 the nite:

[jie]

[venue of wedding]

[bridal car bck view]

[bridal car front view]

[the blessed couple;congrats!]

[the 'menu' 4 the day]

[Seri Sastika & Azrudin Aris]

[cut cake ceremony]

[me n jie]

[jie zi-lian]

[ending part]

oh wel tats the end of the pics~nites al

2010-02-26T23:30:00.028+08:00

[part 1]

m i heartless or i reali letted go of al my unhappy pas memories?
i used 2 listen 2 songs n gt those heart brkin feelins,bt nw i feel nth.
i totally cant rmb anythin related 2 my pas,in my memory onli my 1st Ex existed..
the res al gone? worse stil,i nv once loved my 1st ex til we broke up.. -.-
even the 1 i claimed 2 love deeply for 4 pathetic yrs is nth 2 me?
wow wat a big change i had..i myself freaked out 2! -.-
recently heard news bout ZA n the girl i once loved alot.
我既然毫无感觉...我想我的心终于想通了吧。
ther's onli 1person nw tat could brk my heart upon noein she's inlove wif another guy.
[ask me privately i MIGHT tel u? =)]
oh wel life recently seriously sucks big time man!
i cant gt 2 slp at nite,den i feel downright sleepy in the mornin! Damm! >.<

at nite goin 4 a weddin,wil be bck wif pics
signing off~

[part 2]

oh wel my nite time sucks man,quarrelled wif baby~ dun wish 2 mention wats it bout
haiz.. =X 6.20pm meet jiejie at control station den trained down 2 Raffles~
reached ther at bout 7.20pm? cabbed frm Raffles to Fort Canning.
damm de its downright ex i tel u! peak hr + extra surcharge + venue charge!
total we paid $13.00? the distance is near n yt so ex,heng jiejie n me kap..
heart gt 2 be stronger cuz i gt 2 learn 2 accept a fact,a fact i nv wanted 2 accept~
路是我选的，是好是坏还是得走完这条路.. i promise 2 nv leave u 4 life~
mayb the way i show love,care n concern is diff frm others,
bt the reason 4 doin so is always the same,cuz ily..
i dun wanna w8 til i lost le den wanna start treasurin.. 不要傻了，无论如何我都不会离开你的
或许我真的对你不够了解，让你失望..对不起是我不对。。。
难道每个原本拥有的幸福到最会却会变成痛苦的回忆吗？！ ='X
sat at a side durin my neighbour's weddin ceremony,jie took my hp n tk pics..
i thought through alot,we've came so far n dun tel me nw its time 2 wave n say gdbye~
这不是我所要的结局~ 能忍得我也都忍，能不说我也尽量不说了。。为什么始终避不了吵架？！
u noe i hate 2 quarrel wif u,u noe i nv wanted 2 mak u feel left out..
想起你我相爱的时候，相见只能在电话里头
每当我在夜里想起你的时候，不知你是否也在想我~
我真的好伤悲，好难受。。就算我忘记时间也忘记你，也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜。。。。
on my way home,was i wrong 2 show u attitude instead of coaxin u?
was i wrong 2 mak thins 2 hw it was,end up hurtin de is u n u alone?
was i wrong frm the start 2 even ask u along so tat the quarrel wnt even started?
was i wrong in everythin i do,endurin the tough times n onli rmb the gd times?
was i wrong 2 be a weak guy (inside) n allow myself 2 fal again n again?
mayb i should change,2 a stronger man.. once i change,i bet many wil hate me ba?
cuz i'll be mor heartless,less carin,less concern n mor hurtins..
is tat wat i should change n become? mayb 1day i'll change,change 2 a heartless guy
compile al my pas hurts n gt insane at once,mayb thins wil be better 4 me..
为什么连哭都是我的错？受伤也是我应该的吗？或许吧，一切都是我自做受。。我罪有应得！i deserve al these
many times i wanna brk down,bt when n wher can i do so? i jus wanna be alone
jus wanna be alone 4 1day..让我哭个够本然后忘了一切的伤害，变成我不想要做的人，好吗？

结束不是我要的结果...

2010-02-25T23:55:00.005+08:00

这几天我想了很多，到底哪种爱才真正属于我
红玫瑰送到你家门口，讨你欢心什么都愿意做
爱要怎么说，说了怎么做，
爱应该给你多少你才会爱我？
我明白感情是不能强求的，只是爱上了你放不开手
我只想给你最多的快乐，只要默默地爱你这样就够；失落也算不了什么
是我想你想到过了火，就连回家的路我也做错
我无法停止我自己爱上你，着了魔~！

你相信吗这一生遇见你，是上辈子我欠你
也许轮回里早已注定今生就该我还给你
一路上有你苦一点也愿意，就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意，就算是只能在梦里拥抱你

al these is 4 Mrs Baby x3~!

2010-02-23T23:58:00.010+08:00

Zzz somethin ridiculous happened 2 my father 2day -.-
some1 mistook him 4 a taiwan singer 余天! [though i lyk tis singer veri much]
i learn alot frm tis singer,al my humour homones came frm him?
hahas here goes the story..
2day afternoon,my dad was eatin at a coffee shop when these aunties said 2 themselves
aunties: eh tat 1 余天 leh 余天!
my dad: gav a weird stare bck -.-
aunties: eh go over shake his hand leh..
den 2mins ltr,al the 3aunties stood up n walked 2wards my father.
aunties: eh u 余天 rite? u come 2 S'pore le ah?
my dad: no la i'm nt 余天
my dad's wife: ya he is! he is 余天's younger bro..
aunties: o.O wa reali ah?!?! can i shake ur hand?!
my dad: i'm nt la.. she anyhw [the wife] say de la..
after tat he veri ps,the aunties shake his hand jiu leave liao..
he continued his lunch n the joke ends~ lols!
wats wrong wif his lks uhh? even me gt misunderstood as 余天's yongest son!
gt once i go out wif my father,1 auntie came n asked me
auntie: ah boy,余天 ur papa ah? i thought he onli gt 1 son 2 daughters?
auntie: since when gt 1mor son ah?
me: -.- he's nt 余天 la.. u misunderstood le. w8 he come bck u see clearly.
auntie: oh ps ah.. he lk lyk tat 余天 frm taiwan,ps ah sori..
den she smiled n walked away -.- i was totally sianz de lor!
if my dad tat famous? mor den me tis Famous Amos?!?! lols!

oh wel enough bout my dad,nw tok bout me~
2day wok up super late as ytd super late den slp..
wak up reply baby's sms den gt rdy 2 go out n meet her
i 1st went 2 ten mile junction ther de sheng siong buy thins,after tat go her hus~
reach her hus at bout 4plus? nobody at home onli me n her..lucky went 4 a haircut
*FYI;Lucky is a dog =)
den i told baby i hungry den she cooked me noodles,we chatted while eatin..
den after tat went 4 a short nap..half an hr ltr lucky came bck!!
wa piang eh! he cut the hair til botak,i couldn't recognise him siol!
lyk 1 skinny monkey lyk tat,den i wak baby up 2 see lucky's new hairstlye~
baby den went bck 2 slp while i go out n watch tv.. ^^
baby's mummy asked if i see any rats? i was lyk huh since when ur hus gt rats??
den she say it came in frm the bck door,den dunnoe run wher liao~
she kept lkin 4 it as she scare of rats? den i oso help her check..
results..dun hav n so i continued my show..
after tat at bout 6pm,i went in baby's rm n slp as i abit tired >.<
slp til 8pm wak up,wak baby up oso cuz time 4 dinner liao + she gt hwk 2 do.
took me half an hr 2 wak her up,2day was better den ytd as ytd took me 1hr! T_T
we wok up,went out 2 eat n watch tv~ baby doin hwk..
11.20pm i left her hus as i wanna be ontime 4 home.
reach home jus b4 12am! phew nv kana nag =D
tats al 4 2day.. shall upload my father n tat 余天's pic tmr when i wak up!

[tis is a pic of 余天]

[tis is a pic of my father]

do they reali lk alyk?!?! [pic uploaded at 24/2/10;3.33pm]

2010-02-23T00:35:00.009+08:00

Happy 200th Day Baby~!~!

7th Feb [½ year anniversary]
14th Feb [Valentine's Day + CNY]
23th Feb [200th Day]
27th Feb [Elyn jie's b'day]

tis mth somehw gt alot of events goin on uhh.

cool eh~ ღ tis feb!
wel wel 200 days had past,we stil gt a long way 2 go babe!
hey hey i'm countin down 2 999th day!! den i can gt the thin i wan le lo!!
[onli baby noes wat i'm referin 2~ :$]
anyw gt it anot doesn't matter,as long as u're here wif me al the way yeah?
no matter wat happens i noe i can always count on u 4 sure,anytime anywher =)
i noe i'm mor n mor inlove wif u every single day..
ty 4 trustin in me al the time,i wnt fail u ^^
cya tmr! opps should be ltr ba i suppose =) ty 4 the nite at ur hus =D
i enjoy draggin u 2 bath n eat,its nt the endin tat matters,its the process~
the process of wakin u up 4 dinner n pesterin u go bath after sch!
cuz the fun n excitment al happens in the midst of processin uhh..
u noe wat i meant as u're the 当事人...

2010-02-22T23:59:00.019+08:00

oh wel its me bck 2 postin after a short brk =D
recently nth 2 post leh,me n baby went 2 春到河畔 walk walk..
we played afew rides,many funny thins happen ther~ =D spent our day wif laughters
we spent a total of $60 (estimation) at the place alone!
wow zai sia us.. saw Alson n Lydia ther as wel,haha a place meant 4 couple n family~
took a ride tat cost us $15 each! it was fun n thrilling =)
took alot of pics,i'm wordless so let the pics do the tok ba ^^
gt 1 video of the fireworks i caught tat day,enjoy! =P

[the place i mentioned] [the candy dragon] [baby n tiger] [me n tiger] [the overall view] [pics of those rides! i missed out 1 bumper car >.<] [these ar the pics of the fireworks! super nice de]

wel wel the video couldn't be uploaded.. nvm i'll post it in fb,view it ther ba ^^
bye ppl,nites..

2010-02-19T23:45:00.010+08:00

oh wel tis few days was reali busy n packed..
no time 4 com til ytd,den use awhile nia so didn't reali post my blog.
although i din enjoy it,bt stil i'm busy goin relative's hus?
baby came my hus on the 1st day on CNY,celebrate NY n Valentine's =D
after tat baby go home,i go out wif Elyn jiejie 2 拜年 at her relative's hus..
2nd day i go baby's hus den brin her 2 my 4th auntie's hus,den we went 2 jie's hus~
went 2 jie's hus gamble,lost quite abit? baby always sav me de ^^ hahas
cuz she's my 财神爷! everytime she nex 2 me i win,she walk away i lost >.<
steady de veri accurate 1,abit scary oso la..
hahas lyk wife watchin over husband's fiance lyk tat :$
after tat father drives us 2 alot of places,we went out til mornin 2am plus..
went 2 春到河畔 see the decorations,saw my fav UK UNCLE RINGO!!
bt its veri Ex sia,at leaast $7.50 per game? me n my bro 2 each.
after tat we went off 2 satay club n ate satays! wa piang the satay ther super nice!
steady de,nex time i'm gonna figure a way ther myself.. its at the 老巴杀? ^^
3rd day of CNY i brin baby go Tiffany's hus 拜年,after tat went my hus eat dinner.
den send baby home,father drives us out play til midnite again!! WooHoo~!!
took abit of pics,upload n let the pics do the tok =)
lazy ah me..

[my cousin n my bro]

[my counsins]

[my biao jie]

[my ah yi n me]

[me wif my new shirt!]

[father n wife]

2010-02-14T00:00:00.011+08:00

its CNY 2day.. it oso happens 2 be Valentine's Day..
should i say its nth special other den jus another day?
i dun even feel the excitment tis yr,probs upon probs..
be it probs in life,r/s or friends..damm every single thin ok!
been havin alot of quarrels wif baby,i doubt tis yr wil be a gd yr 4 me..
bad thins started the yr,haiz.. i totally bwg le.
nw even my r/s is goin frm / to \ =X wat 2 do can any1 teach me?
recently i tried my bes 2 cheer baby up,stil 2 no avail.. tried 2 cheer myself up 2.
thins jus came in al at once,我一时反应不过来 n crushed everythin 2gether.
r/s is oso nt goin veri smooth,everythin went the wrong way,
frankly i already dunnoe wat 2 do nex le,watever i say or do jus dun seem rite!
its al fkin wrong! wrong wrong wrong at the rite time! damm it! :@
i should be happy as i gt myself alot of nice n expensive cloths n i dun feel anythin
dun even feel lyk sharin bout anythin,new yr i dun even feel lyk goin out.
can i jus stay at home n slp al day long? ignore everythin in tis world 4 once?
i dun wish 2 think bout anythin anymor,my heart's brkin non stop~
when wil it jus brk in2 pieces n stop brkin? mayb the day i gav up everythin ba..
when the day i stop carin,stop askin n stop reactin wil be the day i gav up.
when the day comes i apologise 4 hurtin those hu love n care bout me,
i long gav up b4 u ppl realise it..~ 4gt it i gav up half,which is friends.....
the res jus w8 4 ur turn ba if stil thins remains.. =X
i dun wish 2 do so,bt i've no choice..u nv giv me a choice.

no matter wat i stil ღ mrs baby..

2010-02-13T00:34:00.015+08:00

haiz.. dunnoe y,watever i do/say recently jus dun seem rite.
dun seem 2 be expressed at the way i wanted it 2 be~
i dun wanna explain 2 much nt becuz i'm tired,its cuz i felt useless 2 do so..?
life's made up of some happy moments n some sad ones,neither can 1 hav a life tat has onli joyous moments nor is it possible 4 1 2 hav onli grief in life.
jus lyk 2 sides of a coin,life oso presents us wif 2 sentiments: happiness n sorrow
its hw much ar we able 2 revel in happiness n hw quickly we gt over the sorrow tat decides hw we live the moments in our life..
some ppl suffer frm distress silently while others pen it down in words,
thus tryin 2 ease the pain a little bit?
the bitterest tears shed over graves ar 4 words left unsaid n deeds left undone,
nt al scars reveal,nt al wounds heal;sometimes u jus can't see the pain some1 feels..
bein wif some1 u reali love even if u noe its better lettin go is lyk standin under the rain..it felt so gd bt u noe its nt rite 2 do so~
[i noe lettin baby go is a better choice bt since she said nth,y should i say any? since she went through so many thins jus 2 be wif me,wat mor should i say?]
when i do somethin great,no1 ever seems 2 rmb,bt when i do somethin wrong,no1 can ever seem 2 4gt,isn't tis somethin called life? ya tats hw deadly life can be..

words hurt mor den anythin else can,becuz they las;sometimes 4 life...

mayb i'm jus meant 2 failure in everythin i do,be it in area of studies or r/s..
indeed;everythin happened 4 a reason,i always said tat n baby said tat bck 2 me ytd.
sometimes i reali do wonder if everythin happened 4 a reason..
tellin me my mother havin cancer durin CNY season,
mother askin me 4 a dinner [las min] when i told baby i'm fetchin her at her sch,
had 2 attend service when baby called me 2 go 2 her hus 4 a reunion dinner,
n ther's stil many many mor,i cant think of them nw as i'm tired~
did al those thins happened 4 a reason?! if it is so,reveal 2 me the reason!
the reason 4 me 2 brk my promise 2 baby,the reason 4 me 2 accept a hit jus b4 CNY,
the reason 4 me 2 actuali mis baby's reunion dinner at her hus..!
the reason 4 everythin 2 happen nw when i thought everythin's gonna be alrite!
i've thought through alot these few days,cant slp at nite,heart's brkin every sec..
al the worse thins happened 2gether 4 1 unknown reason,hw ridiculous it can be huh!?
the pain of havin a broken heart is nt so much as 2 kil us,
yt nt so little as 2 let us live through it..? agree?
jus becuz my eyes dun tear doesn't mean my heart dun cry,
jus becuz i came off strong doesn't mean ther's nth wrong wif me. [gt tis clear]

oh wel i'm simply tired of bein a friend tat mak the 1st step al the time,
tired of rmb-in al my friend's b'day,be it close wif me or nt~

ask urself a ques:

do u even rmb when's my b'day?

hw many times hav u wished me ever since u noe me?

hw many times do u actuali ask me out jus 4 a walk anywher?

those tat cal urself gd friends of mine,ask urself these ques:

do u reali noe wat i lyk n wat i dun lyk?

hu meant mos 2 me in life? wher do i stay?

do u even rmb my 8 simple hp no. by heart?

hw m i recently?

i'm recently facin a big time prob nw n hw many of u actuali noes?!

should i say u ppl failed as a friend or should i say i'm over requirin?

if u ned me/my help u noe hw 2 pick up ur phone n type my no. 2 cal me,
if i'm nt needed do my no. even exist in ur inbox? sad 2 say ans is a definate 'NO'!
friends indeed i do hav alot,al ard s'pore oso hav;bt true friends hw many do i hav?
its onli recently i realised hw 'poor' i'm.. [poor as in no. of true friends i've]
i nw officially announce tat i've already deleted alot of my contacts in my hp.
if u sms me 1day n i asked hu ar u,u should do some soul searchin ba i guess?
its obvious tat i've removed ur contact in my hp!?!
if u dun feel a ned 2 kp in contact wif me,i dun feel a ned as wel?
if ther's somethin 2 tel me,u might as wel leave a comment in fb,no ned 2 sms~
do u ppl even rmb hw i lk lyk?! haiz.. 4gt it la ppl,friends ar 4ever anyw.
hw many actuali las,i dunnoe..?
mayb non bt i'm glad at least u once play a part in my life.
proud 2 say tat my life's stil fine w/o ppl hu dun bother bout an old friend..

*ty 4 bein ther wif me whenever i'm down,

wipin away my tears n coverin my hurts wif ur love,

helpin me 24/7 whenever i ned u,

always makin exceptionals upon exceptionals 4 me,

overcomin the impossible 2gether wif me;lettin me noe tat i'm nt alone,

ty 4 bein my everythin in life,u're the greatest miracle in life,

i gt 2 admit i owe u alot,i'll use tis lifetime 2 repay u..*

2010-02-08T23:50:00.028+08:00

oh wel ytd had a whole chuck of mini surprises 4 baby..
went 2 ECP,Holiday Inn [window on the park restaurant] n Vivo.
meet baby mornin 9.30am at wlds interchange wearin our couple tee..
we took 858 frm wlds-changi airport,den trained 2 tanah merah took cab 2 ECP.
went ESP 2 cycle,we rented a couple bic,sad case no pic was taken at ECP >.<
we cycled til veri far,along the way saw a fitness corner n i turned in.
of course baby agreed.. if nt we'll u-turn n head bck 2 wher we came frm..
played ard in the fitness corner n somethin bad happen 2 me =X
[shall nt mention here as its GD embarrassin!]
baby stil gt the cheek 2 laugh at me,nv stop 4 3mins,jus laughin at me on the floor?!
den i requested 2 changed our attire frm informal 2 formal..
we rented it 4 1hr,free another 1hr means total 2hrs? 1.30-3.30pm,
we stopped at 2.30pm,returned the bike n head off 2 toilet n bath.
i enter the toilet 4gettin baby dun hav towel,i took a quick bath n came out.
sms baby ask her come out tk towel,den she oso came out sayin its 2 late -.-
stil say i sms her when she's bathin.. >.< [i should say ya i noe cuz i saw? jk]
after tat we cabbed frm ECP-Bugis..on the way ther we chit chatted.
the 1st thin we did was go buy our fav TAKOYAKI!! =P
den we went shoppin as i'm buyin new jacket replacin the old ones..
walked ard BJ [Messy,Everlast n Vintage],saw non of my lykins.. =X
saw 1 jacket at Everlast,nt bad bt 2 ex n so i didn't consider much n walked out
walked 2 many shops n lk,saw non jackets of my lykins,bt shirt i saw some?
gonna sav $$ n buy! ^^ after tat baby say wanna tk neo print n i agreed wif it.
4 the 1st time i walked in wif her w/o hiding or runnin away sey.
1st time i designed on a pic cuz out of 4-5 pics taken i onli lyk 1?
bad hair day,nt nice.. baby so nice bt i nt nice so dun lyk!
after tat we head off 2 our destination,Holiday Inn at sommerset.
trained ther,reach ther at 6.10pm? baby find it earli n so went in Orchard Central.
she go toilet 2 mak up abit,den we walked 2 Holiday Inn within 5mins?
reach ther on time n gt ourselves a sit near the window..k la nt bad la uhh =S
asked the waiter 2 pas me my present [no. 1] while baby's away..
den kept hesitatin hw 2 pas 2 baby as i quite shy mah.. 1st time buyin roses leh~
so big plus heavy somemor! i mak baby turned bck n count 2 10
hw i noe she count til 9 i jiu pas her liao -.- mayb becuz i over excited le ba..
oh wel baby seem calm..? i oso dunnoe her feelins as she din say anythin..
she read the letter i gav her n lk at me wif a teary eye,my 1st reaction was,
'did i hurt u wif my words again? did i upset u??'
i asked baby wat happen,den she say my words touchin? :$
aisey,i tis 木头 oso can write somethin de wor siao siao ah..!
we continued our dinner after tat til 9plus den we left the restaurant.
the waitress ther so kind n thoughtful,wished me n baby happy anni indivisually! =)
ty 4 ur wishes although i din mention anythin ^^
we den left 2 vivo 2 gt baby's present [no. 2]~! trained ther n reached at 10.20pm.
its when i gt worried as i dunnoe wat time minitoons closes??
lucky i gt ther jus in time,i told the person my name n thin i wanna collect.
jus as i finished,i had a bad stomachache! i told tat person 2 pas 2 baby,
i rushed off 2 toilet leavin baby behind >.< came out 5mins ltr,
saw baby lkin at my direction givin tat 老婆思念老公 de face,so cute ^^
den i pretended nth happen n tk her presents 4 her n head off 2 tk bus home.
we took 963 frm Harbout Front,i gt tired n fel aslp awhile..
jus when i was restin,baby fel aslp on my leg? i wok up,sit properly n dare nt move.
i wanted 2 slp bt couldn't as baby is slpin i scare she fal down..
finali reach panjang after awhile,we alighted 2 w8 4 another bus 2 baby's hus.
chit chatted awhile,wished baby happy anni once again. baby kissed me~
somethin happened n it made me skipped 3 heartbeats :$ onli me n baby knew bout it.
after tat hugged her awhile den bus is here,sent baby home til her doorsteps.
she gav me a gdbye kis n i left,on my way down,my stomach is actin up again =X
n so i cabbed 2 BPP,stuck in the toilet 4 bout 10mins n rush 2 tk the las 963 home.
baby was worried bout me n my health~ oh wel i lost slp 4 2nites le..
mayb becuz i'm 2 excited bout it ba or mayb i was nervous? -.-
watever it is i'm gonna hav a nite res 2nite,super tired de!
[i skipped alot as i 4gt wat i typed,the blogger gt prob,everythin gone so re-typed]
ty 2 ppl hu wished us on my anni board!! i'll do wat ur say,treasure n treat her wel!
-.- even if ur dun say so i'll do the same thin anyw..ty alot ppl~!
ok let the pics do some tokins ba..tired le,nite nite ppl.......

[pics taken wif couple tee on at changi airport de handicap toilet]

[pics taken outside the restaurant when we leavin]

[present no. 1]

[present no. 2]

presents frm baby pic wil come out tmr,i'll post it on tis post..[editin post]
show u 1 of it n the biggest among al ^^ the res tmr.

[anni card frm baby which includes wishings frm baby's friends on the bck!]

[tis is the front,tmr wil tk a pic frm the bck n post again]

here's the res of the pics:

[tis is the bck view of the anni board]

[tis is our 小黑 n 小白 ^^]

[tis is a letter n 2 envelop tat contain my HAMTARO puzzle done by baby!]

k w8 i done wif the puzzle upload again >.< sry 4 the delays upon delays..

2010-02-07T00:35:00.004+08:00

♀[HAPPY ½ YEAR ANNI!]♂

感谢你这半年来对我的付出和你所为我做的牺牲...

你所做的一切一切我都知道，

只是一直找不到好时机亲口告诉你而已。

i gt alot of 'thankyous' wanna ty 4,

4 the thins u've done 4 me in the pas 6mths,

its always u provin 2 me tat ur LOVE nv fails~

once again i lost 2 u?

wel should i say ever since our 2 “真心话大冒险”

our r/s grew stronger n better?

1st time is on 23/8/09 n the 2nd 1 on 9/1/10 =)

many thins happen in between bt i believe each time made us stronger

n it surely made us better n closer den b4?

i ty gof 4 a gf lyk u.. sompa! =D

baby,i hope nex time if u ever encounter probs,

share it wif me..let us face it 2gether,

let us 2 become 1 ; 2ppl wif 1 heart,soul n mind?

once again,Happy 1/2 Yr Anniversary baby~!

las long wif tat 最爱你的小安安 hor!! -.- hahas lols!?!?

若有一天你觉得我变了，

变得很离谱的话请你告诉我一声；

我会放手让你走。。带着笑容祝福你

但是，无论如何，如果可以的话，

给我一次改过自新的机会？

i'll prove ur trust 4 me is rite,

ur trust 4 me 2 change n be better?

always rmb,baby i love u mor den anythin else in the world

even if it means 2 sacrificing my life

n cost me everythin in my life,i would stil do it 4 u..

if nex life,i was given a choice 2 choose,

i would still choose u,tis time round be a better man den b4..

w/o u,i'm nth..

girl u're damm precious 2 me~! iloveyoualotalot~

muacks~!

once again,Happy 1/2 Yr Anni~!~!~!~!

[stil countin on..]

2010-02-01T23:50:00.006+08:00

oh wel 2day watched finish 海派甜心 le! Woohoo!!! nice show,cnt be missed! [不能错过]
hmm.. true love can nv be seperated/destroyed no matter wat happens in between,
cuz LOVE is a powerful thin,it can cover everythin n anythin..tats love =)
in life,true love is rare.. so if we ever meet our true love,dun let it go..
u'll regret 4 life.. cherish wat u hav b4 its gone is such a familiar sentence 2 all,
yt,ther're stil many ppl committin the same mistake over n over again..?
see hw stupid human beings can gt..? 明知故犯，自作自受..受伤了才后悔，会不会晚了一点阿？
hmm.. i wok up at 1plus,cool rite?! hahas its becuz recently cant slp at nite..
been thinkin bout many thins,alot of diff thoughts in my mind..?
i'm sry i stil cant let go of tat prob even til nw. its quite a big blow 2 me u see,
i ned time 2 gt over it..giv me time 2 gt it over wif..recovery neds time?
went out at 3plus 2 baby's hus,reach her hus awhile ltr,kana bite by Lucky [dog] -.-
Lucky thought i wanna attack baby ba tats y attack me,cuz i gav evil lk 2 baby?
after tat baby gt shock,scolded Lucky..den made him sayang my injured arm n he did!
after tat made baby watch 海派甜心 de endin,she so guai hor watch wif me again ^^
hahas should i say i forced her watch or she oso wanna watch? she lyk mor in2 it den me siol.. her facial expression so funny n cute >.<
after tat we went out eat? oh damm,hp gt crop up,can onli listen 2 music.. =X
den al cals diverted 2 baby? cool eh!? fun~! hahas =D
we had a bad lunch at bpp,after tat i say wanna go starhub shop,
baby acc me walk ard bpp basement,jus when we were bout 2 giv up,we saw the shop!
den we walk 2wards it? saw baby's kor [Boon Ping].. baby pretended nv see him? -.-
i go in ask tat person y my hp cnt function,den she said alot of rubbish 2 me.
i left tat shop feel lyk closin it 4 their boss! damm useless shop,dunnoe open 4 wat.
after tat held baby n walked home? chatted bout alot of thins on our way home...
reach home le res awhile den do MATHS le.. baby gt lots of hwk do eh,jiayou ba!
i sit ther thinkin of my speech 4 our 1/2 yr anni -.- think til my brain burstin!
lk ard 4 灵感 bt found non? den when i lk at baby den alot of words came 2 my mind,
i den realised she's my 灵感 -.- dumb rite me? lk ard waste time..
n den after tat i asked baby a veri super random ques,i ask her hw much would she rate me as a bf frm we 1st started til nw.. rate frm 1-10 or 1-100 oso can.
den she started thinkin bout my ratings..
cuz her expectations veri high? plus i din read her expectations!!! confirm die @_@
oh wel suprisingly,i stood out among al her ex(s)?!?! i was lyk cnt believe la?
i asked purely wantin 2 noe wher i stand as a bf? hw wel did i score nia..
din expect her 2 compare al her ex in as wel? bt nvm even if i lose oso is expected?
cuz our r/s stil under 'beginners' uhh compared 2 those 'amateurs'..
bt i scored an unexpected A1?! wordless..? bt stil i hope 2 score full la..
end of the yr,i'll ask again..hopefully wil gt better even though nt full?
den she explained y the res scored so less? lyk 4 e.g her 1st ex [2yrs]?
man i tel u,he gt a D7,2nd ex [6mths] C6,3rd ex [1mth] D7 n the 4th ex [5mths] F9!
oh my.. i compare my duration wif al the res,i'm onli at the 3rd place man..
i actuali beat some1 tat has been wif her 4 long?! proud?! happy?! wordless?! SHY?!
hmm alot of mix feelin ba~ bt stil i ty God 4 out shining them al ^^
i'll continue 2 be a better man,better bf n better pig =P lols jk!
tats al 4 2day,nite nite ppl~